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Sunday, August 19, 2012

The person who removes a mountain begins by carrying away small stones.
—Chinese proverb

In October I will have been a Sparkperson for 5 years. I have stopped and started over countless times. On 2 occasions I have lost over 30 pounds and many inches. Whenever my journey is going well, I feel very motivated and excited. Life feels wonderful and I feel like I could conquer the world. Each time I start over I feel that THIS will be the last time, and yet, so far - my last time has never materialized.

I have been reflecting a lot lately on what I would call my "faulty thinking". Perhaps it is never about starting over. Oh of course, the weight and the inches piled back onto my physical body. However all the knowledge that I have gained over the years has always stuck with me. All of the healthy habits are part of my life. The knowledge of what I have to do to get where I want to be is inside me. And I have a wonderful support system of SparkFriends that have stuck with me through thick and thin (pun totally intended).

So this morning I gathered my courage once again to face what lies ahead. I stepped on the scale and recorded my weight. I took out the tape measure and looked at the numbers. And while I did this I was remembering all the other times I have done this. But today I am acknowledging myself as a courageous person for facing what lies ahead. I am celebrating ME for having the courage to face all the reasons I carry around this extra weight. I am loving myself and my fellow Sparkies for being courageous everyday to pick up each small stone that will remove the mountains that stand between us and the road of healthy living that we want to travel. And I am honoring all of the good habits I have learned from my past attempts to move this mountain.

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    Great reflection! Many of us have motivation that waxes and wanes. It's been a recurring topic lately. I wonder if the changing seasons give us pause. Well, whatever the case, here's to using the knowledge we've accrued to keep restarting for as long as it takes!

    2068 days ago
    emoticon i love this! have been pondering a few things you mentioned and like the idea of carrying away the small stones, bit by bit... and perhaps this is the flag to do another lap... rather than the beginning... and at times we need a pit stop, aka plucking naval fuzz, that yes, it would be good to acknowledge that is where we are and then do what is appropriate to remove fuzz... like in the pitstop, they change tires, refuel and attend to any other essential needs of the moment, and then, when we are back making laps, feeling stronger again, restored and walking with vigor, we move moutains :)

    methinks u ROCK! emoticon (pun intended, lol ;)
    2069 days ago
    2073 days ago
    Let's be courageous together!!!! Hugzz!!!!
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    2073 days ago
  • NANAW12001
    I too have faulty thinking,
    2073 days ago
  • MELLY3183
    "Nobody can go back & start a new beginning, but anyone can start today & make a new ending."

    Take pride in starting again and know that you will get to where you want to be. Everyday is a new beginning, and with small steps you will reach your overall goals.
    2073 days ago
    Courage is being scared as Hell and saddling up anyway
    -John Wayne

    Make today a great day!
    2073 days ago
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