You know what? Yah... that's what.
Saturday, August 18, 2012
So sitting and pouting doesn't work.
I've gone back to my sugar cravings. I stopped drinking my shakes because I felt like they were a waste of money if I was going to eat bad anyways. I stopped doing competitions with my facebook people. I stopped sparking. I'm not working. I stopped dancing.
And I'm back up to 245.
As much as I keep saying I want to go back to the weight loss I feel like my head is like
"Yah!!!! Lets do this!!!! Woooooooooooo!"
And then I go to my gym here and there's no one to dance with. My kids go EVERYWHERE with me and they don't want to sit there and watch me dance. And I've been offered a position to teach dance and I can't get the courage up to take it. Then I feel like I'm doing nothing because I'm not working right now so I get bored and eat even though keeping my kids entertained is a hard job and I have no clue when I'm getting the time to get bored.
So someone please kick me... Not really, I hate pain. Come dance with me?
I'm boiling it all down to I have no adult friends here. I don't have that partner to get me excited and amped up. I need that physical gladiator woohooness that came from my friends back in Texas.
My name is Kaura and I'm a socialaholic... Hi Kaura.
So I'm thinking about going back to work. We need the money. My chainmail isn't selling and it's hard to sell shakeology when you're not being a product of the product. And I can't exactly make money off of instructing dance when I can't build up the courage to take a position offered to me.
I don't know what I need.
I think this blog is more of a verbal hug me please. I'm lost and don't know what to do.