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Saturday, August 18, 2012

So sitting and pouting doesn't work.
I've gone back to my sugar cravings. I stopped drinking my shakes because I felt like they were a waste of money if I was going to eat bad anyways. I stopped doing competitions with my facebook people. I stopped sparking. I'm not working. I stopped dancing.
And I'm back up to 245.
As much as I keep saying I want to go back to the weight loss I feel like my head is like
"Yah!!!! Lets do this!!!! Woooooooooooo!"
And then I go to my gym here and there's no one to dance with. My kids go EVERYWHERE with me and they don't want to sit there and watch me dance. And I've been offered a position to teach dance and I can't get the courage up to take it. Then I feel like I'm doing nothing because I'm not working right now so I get bored and eat even though keeping my kids entertained is a hard job and I have no clue when I'm getting the time to get bored.
So someone please kick me... Not really, I hate pain. Come dance with me?
I'm boiling it all down to I have no adult friends here. I don't have that partner to get me excited and amped up. I need that physical gladiator woohooness that came from my friends back in Texas.
My name is Kaura and I'm a socialaholic... Hi Kaura.
So I'm thinking about going back to work. We need the money. My chainmail isn't selling and it's hard to sell shakeology when you're not being a product of the product. And I can't exactly make money off of instructing dance when I can't build up the courage to take a position offered to me.
I don't know what I need.
I think this blog is more of a verbal hug me please. I'm lost and don't know what to do.
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  • _JODI404
    Hi Kaura,

    I'm sorry you are feeling lost. It's hard when you move to a new city... it takes time. I've moved to NYC and Atlanta -- both where I knew no one when I moved. But, I had my husband... so it was OK. I've never had a big circle of friends, but it sounds like that is what you are used to.

    I think the best thing you can do for yourself is to get back to your passion: dancing. Start in your apartment, and then ideally I hope you have the courage to take the teaching offer. I've seen your vlogs ~ you've got the moves... seriously. I think it will lift your spirits and get you back on a healthier track.

    Sending you positive thoughts & hugs!!!

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    2157 days ago
  • CHRISTINCOTA86
    It's hard when you don't have a lot of friends. I really don't either. It's depressing, and unmotivating. I will always be your online friend, and I hope someday, somehow, we can meet!
    2157 days ago
  • LOVE_IS_LOUDER
    So sorry... but know that I feel your pain. Every day.

    And, I just realized that I have no friends... a large group of girls I used to hang out with have stopped including me in everything and I have no idea why. It's depressing.
    2157 days ago
  • BLUE48DOWN
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  • HDHAWK
    I'm no dancer that's for sure, but it sounds like dancing is your passion. I say take the job because you'll meet other people who love dance as much as you do. They wouldn't have offered you the job if they didn't want you. Take the chance! emoticon
    2159 days ago
  • SASKGIRL81
    emoticon What you need is to give yourself a break. You have been a hardcore rockstar for a very long time full of advice and heavy workouts and tips and comments and everything. I doubt you gave yourself a break physically or mentally the whole time you pushed hard and now you got a bit of a taste of no pressure and are basking in it completely. You know you have the drive Kaura otherwise you wouldn't be down all the weight you are. So, do some research.. find some mom groups, maybe some groups that get together with their kids for giant play dates. Go to dog parks or regular parks more often so that your kids can find other kids with their mom there and say hi. You have the personality that catches on to a lot of people.
    2159 days ago
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