Did I cheat? Did I fail? Should I beat myself up?

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Yes - I gave in to the craving yesterday for ice cream. It was unbelievably hot and I was working outside all day in the gardens and vineyard portion of our property. And all I could think of was I wanted a small scoop of ice cream.

I made our dinner (elk, no fat/low cal mini mac and cheese, and home canned green beans) ... and thought about nothing but that ice cream. I did the dishes ... and thought about ice cream. I got another glass of water ... it didn't taste like ice cream. I posted I was trying to fight the craving. I even went BACK outside and worked with my husband on getting our gear ready for the weekend.

And everywhere I went, I was being followed by the specter of a giant ice cream cone. It was relentless.

When I said "I WANT ICE CREAM" in what sounded like a voice from hell- my husband laughed and asked me why. Hmmm - why did I want it?

After much discussion, it was because I was really really hot and just wanted it. We came in here and logged into SP and checked out what it would do to my daily calorie/fat count.

It did nothing. It not only didn't put me over my prescribed calorie count, it put me IN it. I was still 100 calories low. It barely increased my fat. Yes - my carb count went up slightly, but that too wasn't so bad.

OK - so do I eat it or not? Is it cheating? Does it mean I failed? Is it a major backslide? Am I now doomed - doomed I tell you! - to gain back what I lost? Does 1 little cup have that much power over me? NO! It doesn't it. We went to town and I got the mini-serving.

In the end, what was that craving actually TELLING me?

First, I wasn't eating enough. I need to increase my calories so I don't get these cravings.

Second, distraction is not going to work. If anything, it actually makes me think about it more. I need to address it head on.

Third, knowledge has more power than "will" does. I spent useless hours trying to use willpower to outsmart my craving. What I needed were facts. If the facts had said the ice cream will put me over my calorie and fat count, I think I would have said I can't do that.

Did I cheat? Did I fail? Should I beat myself up? No on all 3 counts. Cheating means hiding something bad. Failure means nothing was learned or gained. Beating myself up is useless and doesn't burn any calories.

I'm ok with that little cup of vanilla ice cream. But I did join the 28-day boot camp anyway!

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    I thinks it's better to have a small portion of a treat and really enjoy it rather than being miserable over it. As long as you are on track it's an ok thing. emoticon
    2106 days ago
  • CNELSON5411
    emoticon emoticon you did great! sometimes we have to have those things we crave, but you did excellent portion choice and as you said your body was telling you something :)
    2106 days ago
    You are correct that this is not a failure on any level. This is a way of eating and not a diet. Unless you are never going to eat it for the rest of your life then what is the point of deprivation? Everything in moderation and if you are exercising, staying within your daily calorie range and eating a normal or small serving, then why not have the treat.

    I know if I deny myself or put something on the do not ever eat forever list then that's what I am going to want and when I do I can guarantee it will be the whole carton.

    Your doing great!
    So have your icecream and eat it too emoticon
    2106 days ago
    We all need a break. You didn't fail, so don't be so hard on yourself up. Whats important is that you didn't eat the carton! emoticon emoticon
    2106 days ago
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