Learning to let go...
Friday, April 06, 2007
Lately I've had a hard time learning to realize that it's OKAY if I don't do perfect each day. I beat myself up mentally when I don't get time to exercise or I reach for that sugary treat, but I need to realize how far I've come and that one little slip up won't put me back at 184. It's good to be conscious about my habits, but I feel sometimes that I'm becoming TOO conscious.
I'm a very orderly person and I like having schedules and rules for myself...which is good...but it also can be a downfall. I almost obsess over exercising and eating and I think I need to chill out on it. I wouldn't be where I am today without my conscious effort to keep myself in line, but straying from it once in awhile is not a big deal. I do not want food or exercise to rule my life...and I feel like it's almost become that way.
My personal goal this month is to begin to find a happy medium. I no longer really need to focus on loosing weight. I'm happy where I am. I need to focus on taking the knowledge I have gained from this journey and applying it to my daily life in a healthy way.
I'm only 22 yrs. old. I'm going to have late nights at the bar, I'm going to splurge on ice cream once in awhile and I'm going to miss a day or two of exercise. AND THAT IS OKAY! You only live once, so I might as well enjoy it, right?