Being grateful and positive.
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
I know all of you LIMES have been waiting for this blog, my blog on this topic since I am the one that came up with the idea for the challenge. I have not been putting it off at all but I have been waiting for something that has been happening in my personal life.
This challenge was easy for me to list things I was grateful for but also very hard to try to list the positives. For me it isn't about being showy or bragging, but usually most of the time I feel the things that are positives about me just really aren't that special, or worth mentioning. Seeing that I wasn't the only one who had problems with the positives helped me feel like I wasn't the only one who felt the way I did.
I had been waiting to write this blog because I've been waiting for test results from my doctor. I'm sure most of you have noticed my drive and energy has been way down these past few weeks. It was enough for me to notice something was wrong so I went to get it checked. I waited to write this blog because I wanted to be sure I could include this in the things I was grateful for.
I must say it's a little bittersweet. After I went in the doctor, didn't like how my blood tests were and ordered a cat-scan. They found a mass on my liver and had me come back for a biopsy. I didn't find out until today the results of that.
The Verdict was the tumor was cancerous but they had taken all of it out during the biopsy. They are still recommending I do at least one round of radiation.
So I am grateful for this, that they got all of it out and it's not as serious as it could be. One of the great positives for me was during this time I didn't let this derail me so much from my life on and off of spark. I stayed strong and I am proud of that. I am positive that I will finish the radiation and that this will be behind me.
I am also grateful that I don't take my health for granted anymore. A lot of you LIMES that posted this daily really reminded me that's often something I take for granted - so thank you for teaching me that. And with this comes another positive - that although my goal has been weight loss I have truly become more concerned with how my diet and exercise effects my health in a positive or negative way...I am seeing the much bigger picture now- being healthy for reasons besides losing weight.
Also I owe it to you all for showing me the positives and things to be grateful for don't always have to be big things...sometimes the small simple things mean just as much. I started this challenge hoping that it would help me with something I struggled with and hoped would also inspire you and in the end I must admit it was all of you who truly inspired me. So thank you so very much with all my heart.