I want I want I want
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
This may be a boring blog - feel free to skip over it. It's just a running list of the things I want in life that I have been sabotaging in the depths of my pantry every night.
I want to:
- buy a cute dress
- feel sexy
- have enough energy to be enthusiastic more days than not
- feel confident
- feel effective & competent
- not dread any of my days
- not feel pain in my ankles every day
- not feel bloated every morning
- wear a bathing suit confidently
- be the person I am in my head
So today I'm going back to the fast break goals. I'm using Spark Coach to get back to basics. But this time I will use different fast break goals than last time. Last time I picked ones I knew I could do easily, and to some extent was already doing. This time I'm picking ones I'm not certain I can do every day, but they seem achievable enough.
I have to do something to break this cycle of lose 2lb, gain 3. I'm up 18lb from my lowest weight about a year ago, and instead of feeling all icky about it and wanting to turn away and just "be done," I am going to try and work toward my original goal which I never reached, and not see it as re-losing weight I already lost (this part will be the HARDEST for me - not seeing it that way). But I'm going to try and see it as trying a different path to my goal. So I'm simply trying to develop new healthy consistent habits that will lead me to my goal. My original goal. Which is now exactly 40lb away.
Some of you have lost a lot more than that. I never have. I lost 20lb at one point and kept it off for a few years, then when trying to lose the next 25lb, I got off kilter somehow and have ended up in this crazy up and down cycle. So, I'm not going to focus too hard on the pounds, but on habits.
I've easily got the 8 cups of water per day. I've got the journaling 3x/wk. And unless I'm sick, and even sometimes when I am sick, I've got the 10m of exercise per day. So I'm choosing different habits to tackle this time. Maybe I'll talk about them in another blog another day. For now I want to celebrate that my other 3 fast break goals are definitely keepers, now I'm going to work on the new ones and hope I don't forget about these 3 old ones (it's why I'm mentioning them here).