Reaching out is not my strong point
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
I am sitting at my job about to have a going away party. I and another employee are going to other jobs and they always have potlucks. I hate potlucks because they always involve socializing and small talk. Those are two things that cause me a little anxiety.
The first reason is that I can be introverted. The other is my emotional eating. There are certain foods that make me want to crawl into a cave and hoard food. Basically, that is anything with bread and sugar. This is why, I don't keep those things at home. No amount of information about portion control will keep me from scarfing down a pound cake. But I cannot control what is available to me in the rest of the world.
But the good news is, I can avoid or make changes where I can. In this case, someone made the mistake of asking me what I wanted to have for the potluck. Well I said vegetarian. At first it was a joke to express my displeasure with potlucks. But I went with it. I like not having to worry about bingeing on meatballs or beef lasagna. It would be great to go home not filled , literally, with regrets.
In regards to the socializing. Well I can just sit, listen and eat. My co-workers will try to involve me and I will make the requisite witty reply and try to be ignored until the pattern is repeated.
I am grateful that I don't feel the need to binge due to the stress of this situation, as small as it seems.
This was a great idea!! I left the party pleasantly full and not stuffed. I had very little urges to scarf down everything in sight. I didn't even really want the ice cream. Well, that may be because I brought plain ole vanilla which I hate.