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Need to get back ON TRACK

Monday, August 13, 2012

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I have fallen and I cannot seem to pick myself UP and just do IT.

I have been fighting myself and right now I do not want to exercise! Eating right - that is never an issue for me! However, the last two weeks - hubby got ice cream for his night time snack - I do NOT have a dish every night - but have had a few... not bad right?! wrong! emoticon
I do NOT DO ice cream - why? phosphorus... dairy... high calorie... umm other health issues -

then twice I have been cajoled into going out to eat when I really really did not want to... stuck to my eating options - but had terrible meals - one I did not finish the other - the other, well I tend to bring home half.. I ate the whole thing. For dinner to compensate I ate a lighter meal.

I cannot seem to motivated myself to get back in the pool - I have only gone one day since being home from Cali. I run to mom and dad's now - obviously MORE now that they live up town... I have set boundaries but they seem to fly OUT the window because they need this or THAT and no one else will come. I feel bad! Then I do not feel bad. then I feel bad about not feeling bad. I remind everyone I am ONE person and that there are technically FIVE others to help.

I am trusting God to help me resolve other consequences from my break-down of relationships from the Cali visit. Trial by fire - I just keep walking by faith!

I want to get back on track - I need to get back on track! My mind and my body is exhausted! I am tired! But I know once I start - I will feel more energy and I will feel revived and I will feel like moving!

Thanks for stopping by and reading my RANT.
God Bless you!

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  • STRINGI719
    So sorry for all your stress. I would definitely take some major "ME" time... back off from the rest of thee world temporarily and just focus on YOU and the LORD. I've had to do that in the past. I had several weeks in the spring, leading up to Easer, wheree I just unplugged. No internet, no phone unless absolutely necessary. Just cocooned to preserve my sanity and get right with God again.

    I pray for more peace and serenity in your life. emoticon
    2108 days ago
    emoticon I'll be saying some prayers for you. emoticon
    2108 days ago
  • DEE107
    hugs my friend
    2108 days ago
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