Monday, August 13, 2012

I had a nice long conversation with an old friend of mine this weekend - she's trying to pass the time in the hospital (fighting a rare blood cancer). I realized how often I do not call her and of course by the end of the conversation vowed we'd chat more often (we typically email/post on FB). That simple commitment, it turns out, can be more difficult than imagined, yet how does it make the person on the other end feel?

I can remember when I was growing up, we'd spend most vacations on camping trips. At campsites I'd make friends and we'd become pen pals - writing back and forth for a least a year sometimes many. I always seemed to find time to do that I suppose in those carefree days of younger years. But finding time now to do similar things had become a chore - just "one more thing" to add to the list! What was that doing to my health?

The past many months I've dealt with horrid work hours (so bad they actually did impact my health), personal commitments and challenges and just life keeping me busy. More so than I've experienced in a very long time. And so it leads to absence - from calls, visits and even Spark. After what felt like a breakdown, I declared myself living life differently. Fit by fifty, not living on my work computer, going back to the things I enjoy more so than less. And back to Spark. It had not been my intention by any means to "leave", I just couldn't do one more thing these past few months. I was officially a lurker! emoticon And being in a virtual community, it can be hard to explain and to "see" what the other person is going through. Just like talking to my friend who knows that life goes on "normally" for others, while she stays in a bed for weeks at a time.

I look forward to re-joining my yellow teammates in the Fall challenge, to helping out with the leaders and otherwise getting a grip on balance. I'm cleared and going back to the gym - slowly but surely. And am putting aside that catch up time for my virtual and local friends. And so to my sparkfriends - I do hope you understand. My thoughts have been here while my computer has not. I'm happy to be back.
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    I find even when I can't visit all my friends' pages, they will come to mine when I blogging is key to staying in touch. I certainly am more likely to visit their page when I get a notice that they have blogged. And... many of my blogs go on my facebook that friends outside SP see and stay in touch with me though. Good old cut and paste is invaluable. And what do I get out of it? Help doing this program. I never succeeded on my own before and now I'm doing it. I think this was a great blog. Priorities change when we see the world through different colour glasses. Good job Sue.
    3011 days ago

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    SUCH a good post - thank you! I have just got back into things too (and am on the BLC 'waiting list' ;-)) and finding it SO important to be involved. Not overly so of course, but balanced. Supporting and being supported. This is the time when I concentrate on CONSISTENCY. Here's to being fit by fifty! Thanks again.
    3211 days ago
    Hi Sue....just a short hiatus!!!! I think we all need to remind ourselves from time to time what is important in the big game of life. Its our connections, relationships and experiences that make us who we are and why we are "here". My ex says he likes to live his life on autopilot after our helps him get thru his day I guess. But I have found that the more present I am in my life and the lives of the people who are in it, the better I feel and the more worth living it it is. Being a cancer survivor I can attest that one never really knows how long we are here so as much as we need to work we also need to enjoy the time we have. Glad your back and focusing on the important stuff emoticon Heather
    3217 days ago
    Sue, I probably speak for many of your virtual and Team Yellow friends, you never left. I have missed seeing your posts and sharing a laugh or two but I too have been/am in your shoes. I think we all have. I have at least two important emails to respond to, one here on SP and one to my HS son's math teacher who wrote an amazing email to us. They are important to me yet why can I not find the time to sit and share my thoughts? I think the fact that it matters to you is what counts. I am seeing more and more that these things you write of do. It matter to others. You make that time for you for I understand how we sacrifice that. You are not alone Sue the fact you care makes you special. But remember Sue, you never "left" for you made an imprint on our Team Yellow and old timers like me on Yellow Team will just say, "Hi my name is Cinnamon" and the laughs will picked up where we left off.
    3221 days ago
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    Thanks all!
    3224 days ago
    Glad you are back Sue, you have been missed, but it's certainly understandable how things have been for you!
    3225 days ago
    3225 days ago
    Sounds like you've come full circle through a lot. Hugs & good to see you again!
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    In the grand scheme of things, people and relationships is what it's all about. Thanks for the reminder.
    3225 days ago
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