Working up to venturing out of hiding
Sunday, August 12, 2012
Lets try this again..I had a blog typed and was almost ready to hit "post" when I must have accidentally touched something while typing and lost it all. Gosh that sure pisses me off!!
It's been a long summer between the record heat, 10th anniversary of my mom's death, moving, husband and I separating and learning to adjust back to being alone and not having someone to share responsibilities with.
I haven't been taking care of myself or taking my medicine. I've struggled to pull myself out of bed and just get through every day with the very minimum that I could do.
Husband and I have been working on our property settlement and think we have it about done. Have court to finalize divorce in less than 30 days. I am thankful that we did while we could still be friends. We have been able to sit down and work everything out just between us; only needed lawyer for paperwork and court stuff which makes it much cheaper for us. lol I am going back to my maiden name and must say I'm excited about that. I could go on and on with the reasons why and may in a future post but for now it's just a sign that this phase is over with and I'm back to me!
Nutrition and exercise are two of many things I want to change (spending habits, foul mouth, etc.) but as usual I think I want to make the changes but I'm scared to death of it. I don't know why I just know I always feel this way. Thinking maybe it's time to go back to my therapist and maybe I need to start journaling, either on here or in a notebook beside my bed.
Am sure this is my typical rambling makes no sense journal but I do feel better writing it out (although would have preferred not to do it twice! lol) and now I'm getting off of here before I screw up and delete this one.