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Fighting the blues and winning.

Friday, August 10, 2012

Today I had the blues and really did not want to do anything. Sometimes I get so exhausted from my lifestyle change. Does that sound silly? It isn't like I've taken on everything at once and am overwhelmed by it like newbies to weight loss. I've been making changes for years now and started slowly. First it was cutting out soda, then salt, etc etc, you get the point. I guess I just wished I was at the end of my journey already and was feeling down about how long it seems to be taking. I've lost weight in 30-50 pounds bursts and then stall out. Sometimes I am annoyed by it because if I kept losing I'd be at my goal weight.

But I try to think positively and spent a good chunk of the day trying to do so to get out of my blue funk. I might've lost that weight in bursts but I have kept it off. Victory! In my times of breaking from weight loss I've learned how to maintain my losses. So my months of not actively losing weight were not wasted completely. I am proud of that.

I also came to the conclusion that it is okay to sometimes feel exhausted by my lifestyle change. Let's face it: it is a lot of work I'm doing! Working out each day, planning meals, cooking meals, counting calories, etc. It might not ever be second nature for me to do these things and it is okay. It's not the end of the world if sometimes I am just not feeling it. But it is important that I keep on doing them regardless and so I do. "Don't think, just do." I mentioned before that it is a mantra of mine and I try to stick with it. It really does help.

So, after a time of moping on the couch I got up and hopped on the treadmill. It was a struggle. Not in the lazy struggle kind of way, but the "I already feel drained" kind of way. But I walked and jogged and got my 20 minutes in when I said I was only going to do 10! I was my own cheerleader and said kind things to myself and wouldn't ya know I started to believe them and it fueled me to continue. Later I got on my exercise bike and did 40 minutes on there and beat my personal best record. 12.6 miles in 40 minutes! Wooooo!

I am feeling pretty good now and I know tomorrow will be a better day. I hope everyone has a nice weekend. Thanks for reading. =)

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    Everyone has to overcome challenges and feeling down or depressed now and again. It's part of life. What isn't a part of life is when it happens for long periods of time. We have a choice to fight the blues and figure out how to pull ourselves up. It looks like you're doing a good job of it. Besides, exercising releases endorphins that help you feel better! So you're doing yourself a lot of good every time you convince yourself to do just a small amount.

    Know that you're definitely not alone in these feelings. There's still a chance that this lifestlye will become second nature to you; but, if it doesn't, know that you're approaching things the right way by convincing yourself to do it anyways.
    2076 days ago
    i am so impressed that you beat your record on a day that you felt like doing nothing i will remember this as i have low energy and i think it is in the starting that gets us where we need to go. by the way awesome work on the weight loss.
    2077 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/11/2012 5:03:21 PM
    I think maybe you are too hard on yourself. I bet if you thought about it, you would notice healthier habits that you have gotten and that you are using them even when you are having an "off" time. i guess my point is that overall, you are heading in a positive direction, and if your plan includes some times where you maintain alternating with the weight loss, then that is what it is and you shouldn't beat yourself up.
    2077 days ago
    Yes, I have been there. Funny how a trivial thing can upset the harmony as easily as a BIG thing. Glad to hear you are winning the battles toward the bigger WAR ON WEIGHT!

    2077 days ago
    Sometimes you need to stop and look at how far you have come in order to find the will power to keep going even when you are feeling the blahs.
    You've come a long way baby!

    Keep it up.
    2077 days ago
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  • SALEX52
    You can do it. You are making great progress.
    2077 days ago
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