Day 8. Rest & Changes in attitude
Thursday, August 09, 2012
I will be doing a lot of this today. I tweaked my back and it really hurts. Rest is the cure. I did my final weigh in for week 1 of the cleanse before starting in today. Total loss for week 1 is 1.5 pounds!! I am very happy with this. I joined Spark Coach and really like it. It is daily motivation.
The 10 min of exercise on the Wii yesterday made me realise this is a good goal. I tweaked it a bit to be 10 min a day. It doesn't seem like much but I know this is a goal that I can keep. Even with back pain, I managed to do 10 min of walking in place on the Wii and it felt good. I feel awesome with these changes I am making and love the fact that I have had a change in attitude.
Before, I attacked weight loss with the spirit of self loathing. I hated my weight, my thighs, my belly, my bat-wings. Now, I love myself. I find myself looking at my legs in admiration, I look at my body in the mirror and like what I see though I know I can be healthier. Embracing weight loss from a spirit of self love and leaning into it is such a wonderful difference from self loathing.
With self loathing I am not gentle with myself. I push myself to do more than I should and set rigid and inflexible goals, then berate myself when something happens and I don't meet them. Like being in a car accident with an 18 wheeler and whining because it was my weight training day and I wouldn't be able to do it. I felt like a failure because I was struck from behind by an 18 wheeler!! Isn't that silly?
Now...I love what I do. I have fun with life. I love the healthy changes I am making and don't push myself to go beyond my comfort level. Little things add up. Life is not all or nothing. I am Sparking!