Tuesday, August 07, 2012
So I lost the weight....hit my goal weight over a year ago....husband came back from deployment and 10 lbs came back on pretty quick. And somehow, I still feel like I'm failing? Losing the weight was the easy part it seems....maintaining it is quite a challenge. Like unattended weeds in the garden, those bad habits come back quickly and in new multiples if not tended to on a regular basis. All the old demons are always there, staring at me while offering me a huge plate of nachos. Darn Demons.
So I am here, confessing my shortcomings and realizing that every day has to be a day that I make a consious effort to not only tend to my physical well being through diet and excercise, but my mental well being too. I still am struggling with my new normal of no longer being the fat girl and find myself trying the one thing I did not do while losing the weight. Reaching out.....communicating my frustrations and triumphs.
It is when the human spirit gets to the point where they are sick and tired of being sick and tired, we make change. I made the change and realized a few short days ago as I looked at the scale and said out loud to myself...."Seriously.....Serio
usly?" that I have been asleep at the wheel again and it is time to start tending that garden again. So maybe this time I will document my daily struggles to maintain the goals I have reached....for no other reason than I heard journaling was an excellent way to slay those nasty nacho demons.....