Grief and Stress Eating

Friday, August 03, 2012

Its been just over a year since i lost my 41 year old brother due to a drug overdose. That is a day i will never forget. He lived with my 71 year old mother. He had overdosed when my mom was at the lake. She came home to find her yard filled with cop cars and a forensic team. I had met her there at her house. He was found downstairs. Well needless to say this last year has been very hard. I pushed aside my grief to help my aging mom. Running to her town twice a week to help her cope. During this time i stuck with weight watchers too and lost most of my weight.
My Mom and i watched home videos today at her request and my brother happened to be in them, and the pain hit me full force. I haven't felt that kind of pain in years. Its hard to know what to do with it so i tucked it away, and went out for lunch and over ate. I tend to rationalize stress eating by telling myself that at least i didnt pick up a smoke, as i have been smoke free for two months now.
Tomorrow is another day, i will get up, work out hard and keep pushing. As i am not a quitter.

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    I'm so sorry for your loss. I have battled all my life with my dad's addictions, and now with my step sons. My dad so far has overcame his even though I know it's an everyday battle. My step son is struggling pretty bad with his and has overdosed several times . This most recent time no one was there and when he came too he was finally scared enough to ask for help.

    Addiction is not only hard on those who suffer from it, but it's so hard on those who love them, and in your case even harder since your brother lost his battle. Never beat yourself up. I know you feel bad about overeating but it happened and it's over. You can still overcome your battle and you can use the love you have for your brother to help you!

    2145 days ago
    emoticon certainly a difficult time, even more difficult when you feel you haven't had time to grieve. I hope you will have time for that soon.
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    emoticon good on your for not smoking. What a terribly sad situation for you all emoticon
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    emoticon Don't beat yourself up - take time to grieve - It was great you were there for your Mom - time will help - have you considered finding a grief support group in your area - The interesting thing about life is we are educationed to have a good time but don't get much information on how to deal with loss. Take care
    2146 days ago
    My heart goes out to you. Grief hits us all in different ways, and often when we least expect it, it really floors us.

    Don't beat yourself up about today's stress eating. You recognized it for what it was.

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    You're doing the best you can I'm sure and that's all you CAN do. Keep your head up, and keep fighting whatever you do.
    2146 days ago
    The death of a sibling under such circumstances is indeed difficult - to say the least.

    My prayers are covering your mother & you.

    God bless you both.

    2146 days ago
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