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August goals and some wishes

Friday, August 03, 2012

I haven't posted a blog with goals for awhile, so it's time to dust off the old goal book and get some written out.

Since I crossed that mystical, magical 100 pounds lost mark and decided I was bascally done with weight loss, I've lost a little more. I'm currently at 145, which is 107 pounds down from my highest weight. Everyone tells me how great I look, but I know deep down that I probably need to lose another 5-15 pounds to get to a really good weight for my height and build. I'm still technically 'overweight' according to the BMI charts (by a whopping 4 pounds), but I don't put too much stock in those charts; it's more a matter of what I see in the mirror and on the tape measure when I take my waist measurement. There's a little pudge left at the waist, and my arms are pretty jiggly.

So for goals, it's time to get serious about battling the waist pudge and floppy bat wings. That means:

- Keep the calories in check; I admit it, I have gotten a little lazy with tracking precisely lately. I suspect there are enough extra calories creeping in to make a difference, even though I haven't gained weight. If i'm ever going to lose those last pounds, I need to step it up and be more precise to ensure that I'm both eating enough and not eating too much.

- Add workouts to target arms and abs. I do strength training classes that work them some twice a week, but I need to do more on my own to add to that. We just ordered some workout DVDs that I'm looking forward to trying out, plus there are a ton of resources here on SP and on the Internet, so there are no excuses for not getting it done other than sheer laziness.

- Keep the mileage going. I haven't run as much lately (other than Ragnar), and I miss it. I'd like to get in at least 70 miles this month; I already did just over 3 miles yesterday, and we're doing a half marathon on Saturday, so it's a matter of keeping the momentum up.

Those are my goals this month. Notice I did not set a specific weight loss goal; yes, I'd like to lose another 5-15 pounds (max), but I almost feel guilty about wanting to lose those since they really are just 'vanity' pounds at this point. That little bit of weight doesn't affect my quality of life or health in the least, so it's strictly for appearance. Nothing wrong with that, of course, but I remember when I had so much to lose wondering how anyone could worry about being 5 or 10 pounds overweight. I'm not going to obsess over it.

That brings me to my wishes. I have read so many blogs and updates from people here lately who are struggling to find their motivation, to make progress on the weight they have to lose. I wish I had some magic words of wisdom to offer that would turn the tide for everyone. We all have to find our own turning point, though.

I can vividly remember what it was like to be there, to feel so helpless and hopeless and stuck, wondering if I'd ever be able to lose the weight that I needed to lose. Let's face it, when you're standing at the bottom of a mountain looking up at a peak that's thousands of feet (or a hundred+ pounds) away, it's intimidating to say the least! I'm not going to pretend it's easy; it's not. It's hard work to lose weight, no matter what anyone says. Sometimes, though, you have to stop looking at the peak and just look at the next step. Take the first step, whatever it is for you, and then keep taking the next one, and the next one. I know it's important to have those big, long-term goals, but when they are too big, they can paralyze you. At least that's how it was for me. It wasn't until I stopped looking at the amount I had to lose and just started doing things differently--tracking my food so I knew how much I was really eating, getting some kind of activity regularly, changing the way I ate and lived and thought about food and fitness--that the weight slowly came off.

I wish, too, that I could make the path would be smooth and straight for all of my SparkFriends, at least until you're far enough along the way that the curves and bumps of life won't derail you. That's not reality, though. There WILL be bumps, twists, and turns along the way. Learning to deal with those is part of the process of truly changing a lifestyle, because, after all, that IS what real life is like. Recognizing that I would not--COULD not--be perfect early on helped me not throw in the towel when I missed a workout or ate something that threw my food plan off. Using those 'oops!' moments and learning from them taught me to plan ahead as much as possible and then adjust if life did not go according to plan. It's not what we do occasionally that is the problem; it's what we do consistently that makes the real difference. Consistently tracking our food and making sure we get enough activity in will pay off in the end.

My greatest wish for all of my SparkFriends is that you will find the trigger, the spark, whatever it is that you need that enables you to keep pressing on toward your goals. I know how hard it is when you feel like you keep slipping back into old habits. It doesn't matter how many times we fall, though, only how many times we get up. Celebrate how far you have come, and believe you can reach your goals. I know you can do it.

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    You are so right in having to find the right Spark to keep going all the way. Thanks for your blog and just know that you are in inspiration always!
    2423 days ago
  • TANYA602
    What an amazing way with words you have. This blog was just what so many of us needed. It isn't easy to lose weight, but living a healthier lifestyle begins to make so much more sense as time goes by. hmmmmmm
    Thank you for sharing. And you can't "feel guilty" for wanting to lose those "vanity pounds." You need to do right by you, and you alone.
    Your story here is truly motivational!
    2424 days ago
  • CANNIE50
    SUCH a wonderful blog, inescapable truth so beautifully stated. It is very uncomfortable to change our brains and our bodies and our habits and our attitudes, no one can do it for us, and we have to want to change more than we want to seek out the false comfort of excess food and inactivity. You are a true inspiration. PS I would so enjoy doing the Las Vegas Ragnar with you but I have a family obligation in Portland in November so I know I cannot fit both (acknowledging my limits and not over-committing is a relatively new behavior for me, by the way). PSS I have found that I am running noticeably faster since I did Ragnar - not more distance but covering short distances a minute per mile faster. It is pretty shocking to me.
    2425 days ago
    2426 days ago
    You are AMAZING! What an inspiration...I am going to vote on this blog.

    Your statement about what we do consistently really hit home with me.

    2426 days ago
    What a great analogy, being at the bottom of the mountain and starting with one step. Congratulations on your accomplishments this past year and thank you for passing out great wishes!
    2426 days ago
    Such a great blog!
    2426 days ago
    Thanks for the kind wishes, sparkfriend!

    May you also find everything you need for the rest of your journey.

    PS it is better finding your own way, when you have support abound.
    2426 days ago
    I loved your blog!! I still struggle with all this and I am 4 months in with 30lbs gone. I just keep faith that I am moving in the right direction and your blog helped renew that faith. One step at a time. That has been my mindset all along. It can be done!

    Good luck on your goals! emoticon emoticon
    2426 days ago
    From my point of view, you yourself are the magic that you share with your friends.
    No, you can't wave a magic wand to make it easier or to help us along, but you can put fingers to keyboard and offer your help, support, encouragement, and your very own story. That means the world to those of us who are having that hard time.

    Your comment on my blog the other day *touched* me and let me know that it may be tough, but taking one step at a time is the right way to get back to where I want to be.

    Thank you, for the magic that is YOU!
    emoticon emoticon

    Now go get those goals and make them a reality. You can absolutely do it!
    2426 days ago
    Thank you so much for this blog!! I am one of those struggling, because I slipped backwards after losing 48 pounds. There are lessons to be learned there, and maybe I didn't learn how to handle those "oops" moments or days...or I wouldn't be where I am today. You gave me and others loads of good advice here! This is one of the most awesome things about Spark is the motivation you get from fellow Sparkers!
    As for bat wings and pudge, emoticon emoticon !!!!!!!!
    2426 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/3/2012 9:56:02 AM
    Great post and great goals.

    *Nothing wrong with vanity pounds, unless those are what you base your self-worth on. Vanity pounds are like getting the new wardrobe to go with the new you: they help you remake yourself so you're less likely to go back!*
    2426 days ago
    Such great words of wisdom from someone that knows what she's talking about. I hope you have a great month!
    2426 days ago
    What a wonderfully, well-written blog, and so much good stuff I hardly know what to comment on!

    Losing your "vanity" pounds are just another goal you are setting for yourself. We always perform our best when we have a goal before us, you don't have to feel "almost guilty". You've earned the right to focus on those pounds!

    Your advice is so heart-felt. You are so right -- no matter where we are in the journey the only thing we need to concentrate on is THE NEXT STEP. No sense looking at the peak of the mountain when the only thing that matters is the NEXT STEP!

    Thank you so much for your words of wisdom -- they are going to inspire me to stay the course today!
    2426 days ago
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