First off, let me say thanks to everyone who was so supportive yesterday. I think I'm just freaking out slightly that I'm supposed to stop losing weight. You get used to the rhythm, and for a person like me, who is addicted to the scale, the thought of not seeing a loss EVER is scary. I do great with the motivation of a downward moving scale, I'm not so great when the scale fails to be a motivator.
I think I'm different this time - I think I've learned the joys of NSV's, I KNOW I love feeling fit and won't give up the workouts, I just find myself in a place where I don't feel like I know what to do. I found blogging so helpful in losing, and I need to figure out how to make it a part of maintenance. I just don't always know what to say without posting "i lost a pound!" :)
So, on to THIS blog, I need to give you a little history. When I gained weight during the kitchen renovation, I was taking vitamins. I started taking these multivitamins around the time we started renovating, and then I started gaining. Of course, me being the queen of denial, I told myself that somehow it was the VITAMINS that were causing the weight gain. You know, because I was already getting enough nutrition, and so the extra was turning into pounds.
It surely wasn't that I was eating out for every meal because I had no kitchen for 6 months. No, it couldn't be that!
So, I stopped taking the multis. Of course, I didn't lose weight, but I stuck with my theory. I just had to lose the weight, so I shouldn't take those evil vitamins.
It was sort of like when I used to say: "No, I'm not out of shape, the staircase to my office is two floors up with no landing. It is the no landing thing. THAT is why I'm huffing and puffing." You know, denial. I'm awesome at it.
Well, I've lost the weight now, I have a kitchen again, and I started thinking about those vitamins. Maybe I should take them. So, this morning, I took one right after I woke up. Then, I started my workout.
I often workout on an empty stomach, and I do great. (Better with a little food in me, but empty is better than skipping it because of time constraints). Today though, 30 minutes in, I almost threw up. I was dizzy, I felt faint, and I was shaking. I drank some, and paced, and got back to it, but I actually had to skip the hardest part of the workout and finish early.
I couldn't figure out WHY this happened until I remembered that I used to take the multis at night because on an empty stomach they mess with me.
Then the denial was destroyed. Nutrients do NOT give me energy to workout or exist or anything. They do other, very important things, but they are NOT energy. If they are not energy, they can't make me gain weight.
It takes something as severe as falling apart during a workout for me to finally admit that I made something up to give myself an excuse. I'm glad I'm more of a "no excuses" girl these days, so I was open to it.
I had a healthy smoothie, and feel great now. AND I'm blogging, so BONUS!
Oh, and for Cinercia, (and anyone else who wants it) here is MY version of the awesome chocolate smoothie:
1/2 cup water
2 T unsweetened cocoa
1 T natural peanut butter (or almond, or coconut, PB is just my fave)
1 frozen banana
1/2 to 1 cup of frozen chopped spinach (one brand is packed so I use the lower end with it)
3/4 cup frozen cherries
I throw it all into my vita-mix and use the plunger to mix it until it is the texture of chocolate gelato. It turns a lovely chocolate brown and I eat it with a spoon. It is AWESOME!
Without a vita-mix, I don't know what I'd do. It is essentially a form of banana soft serve, and I've seen articles online about making that in a food processor, but you might have to add things in a different order.
MEGAN50MORETOGO posted the original recipe on her blog, and I tweaked it. It used to call for blueberries, but I think the color is better with the cherries. This is to say that it is a very flexible recipe and is awesome. Megan said hers was from shape magazine, and I found a link to what may have been the original (it has all sorts of extras that you may or may not want to use): www.shape.com/healthy-ea
Trust me. AMAZING.
OK, for a girl who can't blog, I sure went over the top today. Sorry 'bout that. When it rains, it pours. Hugs to all my sparkpeeps!!!