Only 24 pounds until I've lost 100!!!!!
Monday, July 30, 2012
Today is a good day, I've started my day off with a light yogurt with blueberries, banana and strawberries. It was very yummy. I am starting to get a little hungry now and am trying to think what the heck I can snack on. I don't want to over due it with the blueberries lol and I'm babysitting for a girl who is to lucky to be a size 3 and eat whatever she wants so you can guess how her fridge and shelves are packed.
Life lately? It's been good for the past week or two. I was hurt and broken from a big mess that I created but I feel like it all worked out for the better in the end. I still miss the friends that I haven't been able to see but it's just giving me more time to work on myself. I went for about two months of not eating well, being so tired all the time, feeling sick almost everyday, calling into to work because I couldn't function, but yet I thought I was happy? Come to find out I was living but not really living life. I had my heart broken for the first time and that was hard but I have come out of it 10x more motivated to work on me and my goals. Letting go of the anger bitterness and hurt and reverting it into motivation is an awesome thing to be able to do.
Since I started working out, eating right, and sleeping well again I feel happy, empowered, healthy and alive. I can no longer drift through life living for everyone else and not myself. I have found how awesome the people I have in my life are and appreciate them all so much more. I have also reconnected with a guy I tried dating once when I wasn't happy with myself and things have been going good. No where near ready for a relationship lol but it's nice to be able to enjoy dating and taking it slow. He is a nice guy, he even holds doors for me and took me out for dinner on my birthday which was awesome!
Ok so now I am down to 210, that is 10 pounds away from my original goal so now I am going to work towards 180 and continue being healthy and whatever I loose after that is topping on the cake. I can't wait to be able to say I am in the 100's. I can't remember the last time I was. Maybe jr high? maybe not lol. Oh and 186 I will be able to say I've lost 100lbs! Only 24lbs to go. I mean come on how many people do I know around me that can say that? Not many so i feel pretty damn good.
So remember do this for you and to make yourself happy not to please the people around you. You have to stay motivated and remember every healthy day is one more day to becoming the awesome, amazing, healthy you.