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7/29 won't reach my goal this month

Sunday, July 29, 2012

well I'm sad to report that I won't reach my 100 mile goal this month. I've been having a bit of turmoil on the homefront and my running has suffered because of it. well tomorrow I deliver my horses to their new home. this greatly saddens me to no end however, I realize that they deserve better than I can give at this time in my life. I was very lucky to find a good home for them both and therefore, would be foolish to turn it down. so no running today either. quite frankly I've been sick over all this and have not even been able to function very well. I know this needs to happen, but it has not been without great sadness on my part. I love my horses! I always have and being with out them for even a moment will make my days dark and sad. I know it will all pass but it will take me some time to bounce back from this one. so I'll try to get in a few miles in the morning - but I need to leave after lunch to deliver the horses and it is a 2 hour drive - then home so I know I won't run tomorrow after all that - and tuesday I may get in a few miles in the morning and hopefully at lunch - but I have a meeting after work - so no run then either - there is no way I can run the over 20 miles I need in just 2 days. so I'm going to just take this and own it. for the first month since March I won't reach my 100 mile goal.

no miles today:

July: 76 rounding down I dislike . anything for miles
Weekly: just that 5
yearly: going to round up so 511 left to go -

so actually I would be happy to run the 11 and atleast reach the 1/2 way point in my 1000 mile goal for the year - hoping I'll feel better by morning to get in a few miles then

so know I'm fine - just a bit sad - life has been throwing me alot of curve balls lately and I'm sure it isn't done with me yet.

so take care my friends - things will get better - and thanks in advance for all your great support - I can always count on my great spark friends for your amazing words of support and thought.
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    Knowing that you had to do it for a good reason would be a lovely thing to concentrate on, but I know as well as you that all you can think about is them being gone. I do hope it can get easier for you soon. Just remember that you still have to take care of yourself - and I mean that. It doesn't mean you have to run out and do 20 miles in a day (I would shoot myself first), but it does mean you cannot give up on YOU!

    Take some time and then get back on track. Everyone needs time to grieve. Just imagine a giant hug coming from all of us!

    2091 days ago
    It's so hard to part from family members, whether humans or animals. i feel you pain, but you've made a choice for what's best for them (and you, at this time). Take joy in the fact that you've given them toe best that you can!

    Running comes and goes, as you've already experienced this past winter. I know you'll bounce back and reach your goal this year!

    Keep on keeping on!!!
    2092 days ago
    Been there....I rescued a Jack Russel that had been hit by a car, and he was with me for 2 years.....When my other dog died of old age, the jack Russell started biting the cat and a home opened up....with two elderly ladies with a 3 season porch and fenced yard.

    II tortured myself with questions like," what kind of person gives their companion away?" That's pack behavior, isn'tit? The drive to stick together?

    I know it was the right thing to do, but so painful. Im so sorry for the pain from your good hearted deed. Strength my friend! Give yourself time to grieve.
    2092 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/30/2012 8:12:53 AM
    I am so sorry to hear that you had to find new homes for your horses. I know that it has to be real hard for you. I hope and pray that things get better for you and your family. Hugs my friend.
    Don't be so down on yourself for the running. You are doing FANTASTIC!!!!
    2092 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/30/2012 7:24:19 AM
  • RD03875
    I am so very sorry my friend, hope things get better soon for you.
    2093 days ago
  • MORY;)
    I"m sad for you about your horses, but know that it's for the best for them now. Still that doesn't make it hurt any less. Sending lots of hugs your way. Please don't be disappointed in yourself for not achieving your goal this month, I'm sure you will make up for it in August. You're amazing to be doing as well as you are with sooooo much going on!! So don't you get down on yourself, I know that I am so proud of you and you inspire me every single day!!! emoticon
    2093 days ago
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