What is wrong with me!
Friday, July 27, 2012
What is wrong with me that I can't walk in a park that is within walking distance of my home?
What is wong with me that I can't walk in my own neighborhood?
I drive past the park at least 2-4 times a day and (obviously) live in my neighborhood.
My neighborhood is nice - no real threat of dogs. My park is really really nice with some nice walking trails.
So what's stopping me??????????????????
* I'm polerized by thinking my neighbors will "watch" me
*I'm polerized by not wearing "appropriate" clothing
*I'm polerized by the thought that not wearing "walking clothes" that people will think I'm an idiot.
What the heck is wrong with me!!!!!!!! Do I need a therapist? Do I need hypnotherapy? Do I need a reality check?
How do I overcome this? Too easy to just say "get over it" or "just do it" It doesn't work that way in my world.
Why do I care what others see me do or what others see me wear? Maybe because everyone who is at the park walking actually wear appropriate clothing? Maybe because I'm not comfortable with my neighbors?
Yes I have appropriate clothing but when I dress for the morning I grab the closest clothes - jeans - and who wants to change chothes several times a day? (another stumbling block)
So what's the answer? How do I over come this!