Friday, July 27, 2012
THE SHORT STORY: This emotional roller coaster of a week will be over today. Tomorrow is the weekend, and if all goes well Monday I begin with a fresh start . I made it through a very tough time and I stayed on a healthy path. YAY me!
THE LONG VERSION:
This week has been REALLY hard at work. We were to have a company meeting Tuesday to improve communication and take care of needed administrative things. The owner cancelled it Saturday citing the cost was too much. But what really happened is that he took it personally because to him it meant something is wrong with the company and so THAT meant we were calling him stupid. We hurt his feelings. (The office manager had already made it clear that if we didn't have this meeting she is leaving. As soon as the meeting was cancelled, I began searching for a new job. She and I are the most positive ones in the office. No way can I stay and carry that weight alone. The other girl in the office is already in the process of getting hired on by our local school board. That is his entire office staff.)
Since he is carrying alot of hurt he just "went off" every day over something. Culminating yesterday with his threat to fire the entire staff and hire people who can do their job. Oh, it got ugly and he was VERY hostile verbally. Absolutely toxic. No one was rude to him. In fact, we were all very kind and civil ALL week. Even yesterday.
Later, hours later, he was regretful about his outburst. He didn't apologize. He excused his behavior saying, "I'm part Indian so I go right past angry and straight to crazy. Thank you for keeping calm." I have since learned that he does this on a regular basis. Somehow, I was told by others in the office, my being there has made him calmer. I should have been seeing this every week apparently.
I interviewed with a new company Wednesday evening. I have my second interview with them today. And the third interview with them is already scheduled. If it is meant to be this will go smoothly. If it goes smoothly I will start the new job on Monday. And for the the first time in my life I will leave a job after only 6 weeks and with no notice. The office manager will be gone in less than 30 days. The office clerk starts her new job 8/6.
He doesn't have to fire us because we are leaving and it will be done within the month.
And the only BIG "off the chart" eating I did was on Wednesday after the interview. I had gone from work to the interview, no dinner. I made a California pizza, cut it into squares and ate the whole thing before bed. But at the very next meal I was right back on track and I have stayed on course.