Wednesday, July 25, 2012
This morning, I stepped on the scale, and it read 125.
Not 125.4, not 125 point anything.
Just like that. Just like, no biggie, you weigh 125.
Only it IS a biggie. That is my goal weight here at sparkpeople. My GOAL!!!! The one I've been working on since December 27, 2011.
I got off, reset the scale, and stepped on again. There it was again, not a hallucination or anything. I did that 4 times. Then, I got off and bounced and giggled and did a happy dance.
Because that is how I weigh myself.
Well, sparkpeople picked this goal for me, and according to this site, I was supposed to reach it on June 2. That didn't happen, but the goal DID. I'm totally ok with the fact that it took me almost 2 months more than it was supposed to, because what is "supposed to" really, anyway?
I'm very pleased, and I'm actually glad that it took two extra months. In those two months, I realized that I could be happy at 127, or 126, but I kept working out, and kept eating well. The scale barely moved for those last two months, but *I* moved. I feel now, like I can do this thing - maintenance is way harder for me than losing weight, which is plenty hard. Now though, I know I can do it. I'm in a different place, I'm a different person, and I have different goals.
Because it turns out that 125 wasn't my only goal. Feeling fit and awesome, and being proud of myself, those are goals that are ongoing. I can use SP to keep up with those, even if the weight losing thing is over (which it might not be, because, really, this healthy bmi range extends waaaay lower than 125 for me).
I'm so grateful to my sparkfriends - having you guys has kept me more accountable than I've ever been before when it comes to eating and fitness. You guys have been with me during the last several months of "losing weight is hard" and now I know you'll be with me during this "maintenance is hard" part. Thank you all so much!
I'll post some pics soon - I just have to figure out what to wear for my "goal completed" picture. :)
I'm pretty excited, but I think I'll shut up now. I've got to go do the happy dance again.