Tuesday, July 24, 2012
It is so frustrating to know what I can do and that I can do it but keep NOT Doing it!!
When I offer tools to clients who don’t use them, refuse resources, turn away support, etc., it’s hard to watch their apathy and complacency toward growth and willingness to stay stuck. Here I am, doing the same thing.
I went to a great seminar on nutrition last night. The presenter, with all sorts of certifications as a food and fitness trainer, said that 90percent of the weight loss battle is emotional. This was further proven by the fact that nearly EVERYONE had at least one written question about ‘how to quit emotional eating’. The idea of making food emotionless, of not seeking comfort in food, in not making food into your therapist, is one that plagues most women. So when food becomes the way that we cope, we are going to turn to it for every.little.thing. Celebration, reward, hurt, punishment – I have done all of these and more using food.
I requested suggestions for working out with chronic pain (hip, neck, shoulder are all fighting me right now). She said to take some time off. I couldn’t do that, I explained, I would gain weight. Why is that, she asked. Because I eat too much.
Simple as that people. I eat too much.
The trainer said well you know what the problem is then, and reminded me that I can’t out-workout a bad diet. Well damn if I don’t try! And then I’m sore and everything hurts, and I don’t want to workout as hard. Burning 300kcal in 30 minutes on the elliptical is NOTHING compared to the 2000kcal in 4 pieces of pizza that takes me 3 minutes to eat.
So I have lots of freggies, all cut up and ready to take to work. Tons of salad goodies (bc I will eat what I like and I like me some salad!) and Saturday is my cheat day. I need to readjust my smoothies to decrease calories (I’m NOT giving up fruit: If I can’t drink, have cheese/yogurt/ice cream and chocolate is a special treat not daily treat, you can bet that I’ll risk the sugar from a strawberry!). I need to plan ahead. I need to do this the way I know how. The way that works. And give ME 110% rather than focusing all my energy elsewhere. There is no excuse for not treating myself the way I want to be treated. And if someone else was as disrespectful of my body and health as I am, no way I’d stand for it.
So, it’s Angie v2k.0 (yes as in 2000). I don’t know what tomorrow will look like, but today I am winning.