Must...learn...to say... no
Monday, July 23, 2012
My plate is FULL. I do it to myself. I wanted to dig into my house and have all the deep cleaning done by this point in the summer but haven't even really begun. Instead, I run here, do this, do that, etc. I tell people I can do things without always thinking it through and sometimes before I even completely figure out the logistics. I am not angry at the people I tell yes (and more likely have even volunteered for). I get frustrated at myself for it. For example, I joined the booster club, sounds good until you realize that means 2 nights of football every week this fall. I'll split Thursday's between both of my kids and then be at the varsity games most Friday nights. No one made me do this. In fact, I was asked if I wanted to be an officer and one of the other mom's who is in a very similar spot as me told me she just more or less observed and participated when she could the first year. It was something I wanted to do but when I look at the rest of my schedule, it seems so overwhelming. I have been this way for am long time but it seems to be worse in certain categories lately. My problem with that is my activity plate fills up and then my food plate fills up.
Not literally because I will snack and eat junk trying to make me feel less harried and stressed. (Can you tell why I am on the EE team?) Today was bad food wise and I think that was a good thing for me because made the connection between my emotions and comforting myself with food or in the case of today, mindless eating. Not proud of myself that it took a bad day and blogging about it before I could make the connection but glad something began to click. I hope this light bulb moment sticks. Like some of my other posts, not thrilling but I need to put it in print so I can look back and go AH-HA!!!!