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Mixed Emotions

Friday, July 20, 2012

Well today is one of those days where my emotions are running every which way that I can't tell if I am coming or going. Part of me is excited about the Biggest Loser Challenge they are getting ready to start at my job and the other part is tired/exhausted and feeling really bummed. There are so many things I have to be thankful for but yet I feel like I am still missing something and I know that something is the feeling of happiness. Don't get me wrong I have a great husband, kids and grandkids, I have a job (I hate) but it pays the bills. I know that the number on the scales is part of what is keeping me from being happy. The struggle to get to that healthy weight. I try so hard sometimes just to fall backwards. Every time I have to look in the mirror I want to cry. I ask myself how did I get here, how did I allow myself to get this big. Well the oven timer is going off so I better wrap this up. Hope tomorrow brings me to a better feeling.
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  • GGRANLDY
    emoticon you are emoticon . Don't look in the rear view mirrow keep on pushing forward. Taking one day at a time. Even one step at a time. You will come out on top! I believe in you.

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    3256 days ago
  • UNSTOPPABLE_
    Oh Tammie, I wish I could just hug you & tell you everything will be okay. The thing is, I know those feelings too well. I guess we all do. I'm going to keep praying for you
    3257 days ago
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    The Bible admonishes us not to look back, but as humans it is very hard. Though I try not to I do as well. Often we got into this predicament by not telling ourselves no, or getting so caught up in other things we forgot/avoided ourselves. Only you know the answer for you, mine personally is multifaceted, as I'm sure yours is too. The question that we should ask ourselves is how are we going to get back? If every time you start asking yourself how you got here, change it to how you will get back. I only hope this helps. Take care.

    3257 days ago
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    emoticon Hope you feel better tomorrow!
    3257 days ago
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