Slip sliding away...

Thursday, July 19, 2012

It is entirely too easy to get off track, especially when your life is completely in the unknown zone. Based on how things go today in my now 3rd interview, I could be moving 3 hours away in a matter of 2 weeks or stuck here in the Bay for another 2 months. Either way, I'm moving my family to Chico, CA and very, very, very excited about that! Financially life has been tough but that is nothing new, just learning to re-juggle with what I have.

I've been in a roller coaster for a month now, or so it feels. My stomach is literally upset and completely in knots. Even though I know everything will be ok and that our decision to leave the Bay Area is for the best, its hard to swallow. I guess we feel like we failed some how but we just can't keep paying this much in rent and my kids deserve a more well rounded environment to be raised in. Oh well, I can't place the blame of our current economics on any one person, especially myself. The world is kind of an evil place and most of us who have been affected by this economy time and time again must realize we are not the evil ones or the powers that be. We had very little to do with the state of our current financial affairs, yet we feel the direct impact more than anyone else. All I know is that I am making decisions that are for the best for everyone in my family and that feels damn good...better than wealth.

So with that, I am wiped out and feeling completely out of alignment when it comes to my health. Its time to see a chiropractor, to get back to exercise and healthy eating. Two days of on the road "eating" has caused me to feel about 10 years older.

I'll be honest and say I am just too overwhelmed to even consider tracking my calories but I'm not too overwhelmed to feed myself healthy foods and get up and exercise in the morning. I got up today and did just that but I can tell my body is reacting to this past week in a bad way. Oh well, chin up, life is good either way!
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    I know how you feel. Adjusting to married life, I am the one in charge of groceries and a few other bills and it is way different than when I was living with mom and dad. My grocery bill has probably quadrupled because not only am I buying healthy foods for myself, but I am cooking more homecooked meals for him, and let me tell you, men eat like double what women eat... at least. Of course I'm only starting to get the picture. Let's see what happens when our baby (or babies) arrive. I know it's tough, but keep on trucking. So many people are struggling. We just have to do the best we can and try to save if the opportunity presents itself.
    2154 days ago
    It is what it is, and we just have to do what we can to keep our sanity and health. Even during confusing times, do your best to keep your health strong. It will help you to make better decisions and to do better in all you do. Stay focused and keep the faith.
    2161 days ago
    I've been thinking about the cost of living on the SF Peninsula A LOT lately... Just because I can squeak by and all my bills get paid,... just because I can,... does that mean that I should? Does it mean that it's really the best financial decision? To live paycheck to paycheck and chip away at the debt from my past abusive relationship,... is that really living? My sister has moved away (to NC) because the cost of living is just insane,... should I do the same? I don't know,... I feel like I want to stay to prove that I'm strong enough to survive on my own,... (maybe that's just a side effect of being abused,... when you get out, you have something to prove,... IDK). With that being said,... don't second guess yourself. You are doing the right thing and I'm sure that you will thrive in Chico. (Yes,... I said THRIVE!!!) :-)
    2161 days ago
    Sorry things are so tough for you right now. Hopefully things will begin to look up. Congrats on being determined to eat healthy and exercise. You will definitely feel better. Have a great night.
    2161 days ago
    It helps me to stay in today. I can only do well today. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come. Blogging is a great start. Keep up the good work.

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    2161 days ago
    Love that song.
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