5 pounds lost...a lifetime of bad habits left to shed...
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Why do I crave such random food items at random hours? I'm not even hungry but I WANT.
Two nights ago, all I could think about were the fish sticks in the chest freezer downstairs. And I mean at 3 in the morning. I wanted the damn fish sticks! Thankfully, I fell asleep convincing myself I don't need nor want them, but it was trying. I couldn't get them out of my mind.
Last night the same thing...I remember my husband had a leftover fish taco in the fridge. It was my obsession. Maybe some nachos/cheese? (And I do mean the worse kind for you, the cheap huge bags from Sams Club and the giant tub o' processed cheese. Actually, I should just throw out the tub of cheese right now. Why did I buy it in the first place? Actually my husband asked that same question...ha.
I need to learn to get these thoughts OUT OF MY HEAD. But with all things, it is difficult to clear my head of thoughts...I need to get better at this as time goes by.
Right now, I realize that I have obtained my calorie goal for the day and I can force myself into not having something more knowing I want to get on the scale in the morning and not gain. (Yes, I know I shouldn't be weighing myself everyday, but right now it is a motivating factor and considering I never have motivation, well...I'm gonna stick with it for now.)
I know how to eat healthy, but I never track my food. Or my cravings. So the fact I have made it even 4 days seems like a big accomplishment to me, and it is truly opening my eyes. I might think I eat healthy, but I eat A LOT, and not fruit and veggies.
As for exercise? Well that has been a non-existent component in my life sadly. I spend an hour or more outside in my garden almost everyday but that doesn't count as exercise. It counts as living my life!
I ordered a new yoga mat last night and it should be here tomorrow. I have mentally committed myself to go to my friend's yoga studio for 70 minute classes M/W/F mornings at 9:30 am. I can do this because I'm not working. I'm blessed to be able to spend sometime out of the professional world with my husband and enjoy our married life, this means it MUST become my full-time job to make sure we are healthy and able to live our life...