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Thursday, July 19, 2012

title says it all this will probably be along blog as i haven´t blogged in along time,lol.did you miss me?the reason i haven´t been bloging is the same as usual i was feeling down and in hiding so if you she me hiding again come and give me a friendly or even a unfriendly kick in the butt emoticoni have also been missing on my fitgirls team again which i feel very sorry and very,very guilty about.so guilty that i am wondering if i am being fair to the team still being the leader.will sending an email out to the fitgirls so they can decide if they still weant me as a leader or not.i want to be a good leader.i intend to be a good leader but sometimes life just gets in the way or should i say i let it get in the way.if i am honest it is more the last.what i also say to others i should listen too more myself like .it is not so much what life throws at you but how you deal with what life throws at you and to be honest i have not been dealing with it as well as i should have and could have.but enough of that i am no longer going to feel sorry for myself i am going to concentrate more on what i can do that what i can´t.i have been having problems with my vision which has got me down thinking i couldn´t do all my craft work etc.,as such my computer time was limited as if i am on for longer time my vision gets more blurred.it is abit better now i am having eye drops every hour but it is amasing how how vision problems effects your whole life and being you have constant headaches ,you get dizzy,you get tired and if it is really bad you get neucious.it makes it hard to think etc,etc.all that just because of a small vision problem.as i result i got behind on spark,behind on answering peoples blogs and the friend feed,forget it.so sorry to everyone.i have tried to keep up with blogs even if i was only answering with emotions.i have as i said at the beggining of this blog decided to concentrate more on what i can do than what i can´t.for example i have started doing my tapestry again 10 minutes at a time.i know if i do more than 10 minutes my eye will start to strain and cause problems.having said thati can do the 10 minutes more than once a day depending what else i have done in the day.just like my exerciseing i have been having problems with my left arm and elbow etc,also with the eye problem i had to stop my running as i was getting too dizzy.but i didn´t use that as an excuse not to do my exercise i just stepped it down.used my physio as my strength exercise ,walking instead of running but still getting the km in etc,etc.NOW if only i could say i was as consquent with my food i am sorry i wasn´t and i am not.i let the slightest tjhing effect me and used it as an excuse.i have been looseing and gaining the same few lbs for the last few months so much so that i have stopped even altering my ticker.well today is a new start and time to stop using and even finding excuses not to do things but find and look for reasons to do things.i eventually got the linda spangle book i had ordered yesturday (the 100 days of weight loss)so as of today i am going to start working through it.at the start of the book it suggest you list 10 reasons why you want to loose weight,write it down and when for some reason you feel your committment to loosing weight slip or you feel like giving up referr to your list for inspiration to continue.this exercise was actually easier than i thought it would be so here are my 10 reasons.

1 for health reasons
2 to have more energy
3 to be an example for my kids
4 to prove that i can do it to myself
5 to prove that i can do it to all the people that don´t believe i can
6 to feel better with and about myself
7 to look better
8 to have more confidence
9 the sense of achievement i will have
10 and above all to believe in my self and in my abilities that when i really put my mind to something anything is possible and in my power.

well i guess i covered everything explaining my reason for not being as often on spark now it is time to thank you all my lovely friends for all your support,understanding and love.it means alot to me especially as lately i haven´t been that supportive back.i will try and be more up to date on peoples blogs but i think the friend feed has to wait a while as i have so many active friends that i need at least 2-3 hours to go back a day on the friend feed and as i said i can go on computer but in small doses at a time infact i have had to have a break inbetween writeing this blog lol.take care everyone.keep smiling and above all keep on keeping on.remember you are WORTH. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    2156 days ago
    You can do this, I am with you on the up 5 down 5 thing. We're in it together. Let's get to our goal weight. If you ever need additonal support e mail me. lion48z@yahoo.com you are such a wonderful person and a great sparker!
    2161 days ago
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    2161 days ago
    crawls out from my hidey hole and hugs you............i think hiding on here must be more common than we realise. emoticon
    crawls back in.............(ps i am well hidden)
    2161 days ago
    You are being too hard on yourself. I know you r still here. You always stop by page at the time in my life. You have your hands full. I have and will never stop believing in you. I am not too familiar with your faith, but as a Catholic and most Christians I know we believe "through God all things are possible". Meaning we are alone in our journeys...it is you, God, family (related or unrelated), & friends. Keep praying for the strength to keep going He will hear you. I am always asking for strength, support, .... help for Him.

    I hope in you time of reflection your prayers are answered my friend.
    2161 days ago
    Don't feel bad....life sometimes gets in the way of our normal routine, but you shouldn't beat yourself up over it! You really have a lot going on, so just do what you can fit in, and pop on when you can - we love seeing you!

    Take care of yourself....you and your family are priority #1!
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    Comment edited on: 7/20/2012 3:11:40 AM
  • FLAME42
    I am one of the FIT GIRLS that thinks you should remain our leader. Just do what is best for you. We all have to set our priorities to suit our own lives, each of us are in different circumstances. Take good care of your eyes!
    I think PEACE_NONNY has stated some very good ideas.
    2162 days ago
  • DEE797
    So sorry to read of your vision problems. As others have said, concentrate on the team or teams that is most important to you. When you can't blog, try and keep your feed updated so we know what is happening with you. Glad you have been able to keep up your exercise. One step at a time... emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2162 days ago
    Keep coming back! We all have times when we are lower then others. We just have to keep returning until the low swings the other way!

    2162 days ago
  • -SONIA-
    I, too, don't have time for the friend feed anymore. I'm only on one Spark Team now -- and I'm only subscribed to a few of my friends' blogs. There's only so much we can do. I think it's better to focus on what's really important to you. Maybe just one team. Maybe just 10 or 20 Spark Friends who you talk to on a regular basis. I only have the focus for 10 or 15 Spark Friends at a time. We both have little ones at home. We're MOMS! We have a lot to do -- and we need to take care of ourselves, too! Don't forget about YOU!! Look at your list for 10 reasons why you're going to take care of YOU!! You can do it!! emoticon

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    2162 days ago
    Any you best remember that YOU are worth it too! emoticon

    I know you can do this, I know you are spectacular. I want you to know that too.

    I will continue to keep you in my prayers and thoughts.

    2162 days ago
    soo sorry about your vision, praying it will get better soon, and glad u manged to execrcice.
    about the eating , i know i do that too.just keep us ubadted about u even in a status, will be praying 4 u and i am sure you will do great and you will lose those lbs 4 ever :) emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2162 days ago
    I am so sorry for your vision problems, hope it gets better and you get rid of all the headache dizziness from it. emoticon

    Great list you have, i am sure you will achieve your goals, it takes tremendous amount of courage to get back on track, you can do this and actually you WILL do this inshAllah, so just emoticon and you will arrive.

    and btw Happy Ramadan to you and the whole family, may it be a very blessed time for you.
    2162 days ago
    Look, it's not how many times we fall that matters, it's how many times we get back up. Sometimes "falling" is part of the learning process and what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger, right? Hang in there, glad to see you're back and YOU CAN DO THIS! emoticon
    2162 days ago
    Karen love, stop beating yourself up..
    You have had a lot of problems going on and it is really hard to focus when you are feeling so down ..
    I am sure everyone will understand as I do, that you are under a lot of pressure with your health ..
    Take it one day at a time love .. Rome wasn't built in a day ...
    The more you feel guilty and hopeless,the less you will get done ..
    You have every right to feel life has not been kind to you health wise .... but love, always remember new ideas and new discoveries are happening every day and soon it will be your turn to feel so much better ...

    Much Love my friend ...
    Always in my heart and thoughts Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2162 days ago
    good to know you haven't lost the Spark, even if it was flickering a bit while you were unwell. I have come to the conclusion Sparking is a full time job so anyone with other priorities isn't able to catch up with all the friend feed, blogs and group activities. Don't beat yourself up about this, we ALL understand how real life takes over.
    I'm sorry you are having trouble with your vision, is it something they hope will right itself? I hope this is the case, you need eyes in the back of your head with small children!!
    I hope you have a good summer with the boys, keeping them amused in the holidays will take a lot more of your time, so just do what you can and be happy!
    Sending big hugs, love and cwtches!!
    2162 days ago
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