KRISTINELOU

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July 18, 2012

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

CT scan today. I have 4 small tattoo dots on my body to line up the radiation rays perfectly when we begin next week. Other than that I look the same in the mirror. If you don't look at the x in my cleavage. It should look like a new freckle as soon as I take a shower.

But I'm timid on the inside. I had kept my attention on my daughter's wedding. Now that it is past, I have lost a bit of my bearings. I'm not sure what can keep my attention. (well, once another reception is finished next weekend) I can't pretend I'm not a cancer patient. Or that, even though the prognosis is positive, that it isn't a serious thing. I don't quite know how to navigate this new journey. . .

I do know that when radiation therapy begins, it will be 16 days of treatment, the method that is commonly used in Canada. A higher dosage of radiation for a shorter period of time. 20 minute appointments--

I have gotten the OK to ride an exercise bike, but that is it. Nothing weight bearing throughout the radiation. That seems like a big step back. I'm missing the routine. Feeling like I'm returning to where I was--

Except I am aware I am fighting to stay alive.

Guess I'll tackle the transformation as it comes . . .

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  • JANNEPERRY
    Kris you continue to be in my prayers!

    I'm glad you have the upcoming reception to keep you busy, as I know that the exercise bike will only take up so much time! emoticon emoticon

    You can do this, I know you can
    3222 days ago
  • AWOOD1973
    You are only human to "worry" and I am sure the routine of "not having a routine" is getting to you. Don't let it drive you insane. Find something that will mentally stimulate you, so you are not focusing on all the things your body is going to go through next week. Can you take walks, or is the bike your only solace?? If the bike is all you can do, well then by God, take FULL advantage of it! :)

    I wish you many positive thoughts, and something to catch your attention and get you through this next phase. You are a survivor! You are SUPERWOMAN! emoticon

    Take care!
    Amy emoticon
    3222 days ago
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