depressed again

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

I am so tried of being depressed all the time. I just want it all to end. I feel so worthless and unwanted. I have been dealing with depression for the pas five years and i can't deal with it anymore. I'm tired of peple telling me how much of a disapointment i am to them. Tired of my family being embarrassed of me . I can't handle it anymore. i just want to go under the covers and hide. I wish i knew what i did wrong to make my family hate me so much. I just want to belong some where but i don't. I will nver fit it. It hurts so much why can't it just stop? Sometimes i wish i could just disapear.
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    I am so sorry. I hate that you are in pain. Just don't give up hope, and seek counseling.
    2166 days ago
    I can't agree more with all the positive, motivational things everyone else has said. But on another note, have you ever considered your hormones to be at fault, or partly at fault? I have started seeing an acupuncturist recently and it has made all the difference! At first I felt horrible because my body really was working hard to correct itself, detoxing, etc., but now I'm in better moods, my libido is coming back, and I actually have hope again! Some wellness centers that use acupuncture also take PPO insurance so the cost isn't too bad if you have that. I just wanted to tell you a little of my story to see if you would think about all the reasons that you are feeling this way. It would be worth it to see if there are any licensed acupuncturists in your area. And the first thing you should do is get plenty of regular rest. Set bedtime for 10 or 11pm, no later, so that you are getting at least 8 hours of sleep. Sleep deprivation is the biggest culprit for hormone imbalance.

    I hope you will remember how valuable you are and how worthy you are of the best! emoticon
    2167 days ago
    You are not alone on your journey love. One day at a time.

    Stay close to spark, you have a big support base here.

    Make a goal to do 1 new thing each day -(Examples - walk 10 min, make send a card to friend or family member, make a new recipe, read a self help book)

    This is what I'm doing right now, I feel the depression pull. I'm trying to remember my emotions are NOT intended to have brains. Do what I need to do so I can do/be what I want to be.(I keep repeating.) My emotions sat Stay in bed, eat chips, don't exercise................I'm doing those good things for myself despite my feelings.

    We are NOT alone Sunshine!

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    2167 days ago
    It stinks when our families bring us down and don't make us feel better about ourselves. Keep sparking!!! This is the place that you will find people who care and people who will cheer you on. I don't know what I would do without spark. Hang in there!!
    2167 days ago
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    You belong here! You fit in here! You make valuable contributions here. You inspire people here! You can chose your friends but not your family. You have chosen Spark. I'd say you were doing very good!! Hang in there.
    2167 days ago
    Wow! Are you preaching to the choir. First, your family does not hate you. You belong here with your Spark Peeps that have had those same thoughts. Now, decision time. What do YOU want. Not your family. Not your friends. YOU. Make one small change. One short term goal. My first one was to limit my soda. Eventually I became soda free. Just one goal to start you on your way. Walk to the mailbox. Drink 8 cups of water. Anything. Just make it about you. I read a great quote once about family. It said family has neither the right or the invitation to comment on your life. Stay strong.
    2167 days ago
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