D@#N YOU CHOCOLATE!!
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Okay, so I don't understand this. I have been doing well on my eating and working out. Yesterday, I work out and am cleaning house and there is that little EVIL

nagging call to chocolate. I have been working it into my 1200-1400 calories range daily but yesterday...I kept finding myself going back AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN for more! All the while saying to myself "alright dummy...WHY are you doing this...you don't want it...you don't need it..

but alas I ended up 25 calories over my max daily allowance and HALF of that being chocolate!!

I thought about it all the while trying to understand why I am having to fight constantly against self sabotage. I mean I am honest enough with myself to understand the fears behind it for me but the stopping it is what KILLS me. I just don't know if I should comfort that inner child or kick the crap out of her. Anyhow, today is a new day and chocolate will NOT defeat me.