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A lesson in how quickly things get out of control

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

I have been avoiding this, but being inspired by some SP friends, I've decided to come clean.

It all started with our mini weekend vacay at the end of June that did NOT go as planned (see previous blog). Knowing that we were going away, I decided that I was going to enjoy myself food and all. Well, I did. Burgers, ice cream, Japanese food, snacks at the movies, etc. When we were done vacationing, my taste for the "not so healthy" did not go away. It was NOT all food all the time, but it was poor choices MOST of the time and very little exercise.

Then the next weekend was girls weekend. My very best friend and another good friend from college get together about 2-3 times a year, and I'm pretty sure calories don't count when your with your best friend... right?!? When we get together, it really is just about spending time... you know, pedicures, dinner at the Cheesecake Factory (don't judge), watching TV and having a few too many drinks (we spend the night, no worries). Did I mention my BF is on her own weight loss journey, ahem, MADTHENURSE? Again, came home from that, and apparently I was going to continue the party.

This weekend, my BiL was in town with his family. I made mostly healthy meals, but we always go for ice cream. Instead of having a baby frozen yogurt, like I've done EVERY time we've gone this summer, I got a HUGE cup of ice cream with peanut butter cups mixed in. They left Sunday but, once again, I continued with the festivities.

So over the last 3 weeks, I've consumed more food and worked out less than I have in 2 years. All of this on the heels of my 2 year Sparkaversary, umm, WTH?!? Cookies, ice cream, italian subs, pizza, pop, full fat coffee concoctions, cinnamon rolls, LOTS of wine, tacos, crab cakes and, oh yes, CHEESECAKE! All in a 3 week time frame, with a total workout time of about 3 hours... in 3 weeks!

So I got on the scale since last Wednesday, saw the number, scoffed at it, said "that can't be right", and refused to get back on until this afternoon. I weigh myself everyday, I knew I gained weight, I could feel it, but how much was the question. With 3 weeks of food and laziness, I've gained 6.5 pounds. YEP, that's right. I got on the scale 4 times to make sure. I can't LOSE 2 pounds in a good week, yet I managed to GAIN that much for the last 3.

So, as of yeasterday, even without knowing how much I gained, I got off my a$$, literally, and got back to business. I've planned out my week. Good food, exercise at least 30 minutes a day, and WATER. I don't think I've had more that 20 ounces of water on ANY day in the last 3 weeks.

This isn't a pity party, but a HUGE reality check. You have to work your a$$ off to lose the weight, but my God does it come back quickly. I'm hoping a lot of it is just water weight, but I'm not holding my breath. Obviously I'm really upset about it, but honestly, I did this. No one force fed me or duct taped me to the couch. I could have worked out at any time and said "NO" once in a while to the food. This all about choices, and I've made some really poor ones in the last few weeks, and it stops NOW.

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  • TANYAP71
    You know where things went wrong and you have a plan. Good for you for getting back at it in 3 weeks, not 3 months or 3 years. Some of what you've gained may well be water that is shed when you return to normal eating and activity. I think in a week you will have a good idea of what the real gain is. Best of luck re-committing to a healthy lifestyle.
    2147 days ago
  • SJOHNS30
    I wldnt stress about 6 lbs in 3 weeks. Ive gained more than that before. But i do agree that it might be a good idea to get back on track. Cheesecake and bad food wont take u in a good direction. Time to get back on the wagon. U got this!
    2147 days ago
    Don't feel so bad, I've done nearly as much damage in a week's time as you did in three! The really good news is that you took action when it was 6.5 pounds not 65 pounds! You're back on track and have probably already taken that weight off!
    2147 days ago
    I can so relate: I seem to have little self control this summer, and I keep putting off correcting it because vacation week is next week. 1st Sparkaversary is the 24th and I haven't reached my goal yet. Still active, just not consistantly.

    Great job facing up to it! Sounds like you are ready to be the healthy you again. Have you been getting enough sleep? I think my longer days are assisting in breaking me.

    2151 days ago
  • CATDUG19
    Wow so true how quickly we can let ourselves get away with eating poorly. So proud to see you back on track. It really sucks that its almost impossible to lose 2 pounds per week but no problem to put on 6 pounds in 3 weeks.
    2159 days ago
  • AMBER281
    I think we can all relate as we have been there at one time or another.
    You can do it!
    2160 days ago
    Love the honesty and even more so...you are getting back into routine. That is where I failed. I saw the numbers after falling off a bit and felt badly, didn't get back into full swing, and OBVIOUSLY gave into my old habits. So sad, but true. Please please please get back to the good stuff, cuz Hol' (teary) ...this sucks bad. I want the old me back.

    2160 days ago
    Hey there......you've totally got this....you can't gain it all that fast! I bet a chunk of it (but sadly not all of it) is fluid stuff that will drop off....then you'll have to work for the last bit. But....reality checks are a good thing. I wish I had half your focus and determination!
    2160 days ago
  • SENIOR62
    I tink we can all relate to that at onetime or other in our lives. i know where you're coming from. Good luck in te dys ahead
    2163 days ago
    The same thing has happened to me...one "day off" turns into two, then three, etc. And it's amazing how fast the weight seems to come back on, when compared to how long it took to lose it!
    2164 days ago
    Holly, I am so glad you are back on track for you. I wander off only to always realize that I just feel better when I eat better! It makes me wonder why I ever stop making good choices... but I do and will do it again I am sure. It makes me think since so many of us have these issues that maybe I should just plan to splurge and be done with it every once in awhile. I have never tried it but I think I just might. Great job at being transparent. It helps me know I am not alone! Thanks!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2164 days ago
    I can certainly relate to this blog... ok, so you did it. Now undo it. Because you can do it, have done it, and can do it again!
    2164 days ago
    Sounds like we are in same place on our journey...but I had let it go longer than 3 weeks and made way too many excuses for myself. I jumped right back on this week too. Thanks for your blog! It's helpful and inspiring to see other people going through the similar things and going for it!

    Way to Go! You are awesome!
    2164 days ago
  • ROSET491
    Good job for facing reality! It is so hard to lose and not sure why it can go back on so quickly!! I know for myself if I work out it spills over into my eating which is better than when I let the workouts slide by!! Sounds like you're back in control;just set yourself a goal and go for it!!

    You have done an amazing job so far!!
    2165 days ago
  • NEKEL16
    I think it is the season for this to happen, I have read so many old school sparkies who have had a few naughty weeks but hey girl you own this. You are making this work for you. Quick to gain quick to lose hopefully mate. keep on pushing and chipping away emoticon xx
    2165 days ago
    I am so freakin' jealous of you....you did all that and gained only 6.5 pounds. i managed to gain 22 pounds in 15 days, and 14 of those were in the first week!!! Another Sparkfriend has talked about how she's been on a major binge for 3 weeks and has gained 4 pounds. How the hell did I manage to gain 22?!!!!

    Anyway, I am on my 2nd day back on track and feel sooooo much better for it....and know,just know, that will can do this too. We've shared so much of this journey together and once again we find ourselves in the same place at the same time. Come on....you can totally do this.We've had our fun....and we can have it again at some time in the future if we get back on track NOW emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2165 days ago
    You've got this! You know what to do and you're doing it. EVERYBODY has days or weeks like this but the real measure of success is what you do about it. You're doing the right thing. Keep it up!
    2165 days ago
  • TEMPEST272002
    I love your attitude: face up to the facts & deal with it. Just like 1 cigarette can derail someone who quit years before, so can 1 candy bar put me right back in a junk food frenzy. Maybe the same for you? Anyhow, you're back on track now. Stick to the plan and those pounds will come off quick!
    2165 days ago

    A lot of that is probably water weight if your intake has been that low lately. You can definitely get back on track and 3 weeks does not erase the 2 years of hard work you have put into your journey!!! You can definitely get back on track and I know you will!!! We will always have those stretches where we don't make good decisions. But instead of getting stuck there we get up and get back at it and I am very proud of you for doing just that!!!!

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    2165 days ago
    Sorry that you fell off the train, but good job ( you only falling a little bit, it could of been worse)
    But now your back and your going to do get. I do know what your talking about, I haven't had a great week myself, of eating (not right for me foods) Husband is on vacation, and it has been hard, but trying my best ( my daughter say the experts say everything in moderation), but I know what your saying. I do the same for now, (sweet tooth challenge) I got all the sweets out of the house, for me ,for now that's what I have to do! You know what's going to be right for you. And right now I know that (temptations) are to hard to be around. Sorry if this was to much, but I read what you post and I know you can do this! emoticon
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Will be there for, with you! And this is no no pitty party (friends!) emoticon
    2165 days ago
    It happens to the best of us. Glad you are taking control and not letting this detour defeat you. That's a girl! Dust it off and get back to it. emoticon emoticon
    2165 days ago
    I feel your pain! I have been really bad for the past 2 days and I have gained 3 lbs!!! Imagine if I went 3 weeks! Ugh!!! I love your attitude though! I'm going to follow in your footsteps and get back into healthy eating and exercising!!! Thanks for the kick in the butt blog! I needed it! You will do great and get those LBS off quickly!
    2165 days ago
    Congratulations for making a new beginning today!
    2165 days ago
  • -POOKIE-
    it does indeed and exactly why Im having to struggle all over again :(
    2165 days ago
    emoticon lesson to learn! Sounds like you have a good plan to 'get back on track'...Good luck and keep us posted on your progress emoticon !
    2165 days ago
    Holly I know you will get back on track fast. Maybe it will jump start you again to lose it littlefaster. I know no matter what you were doing it didn't seem to move the scale very fast. Maybe your body will get going again. I love you and constantly PROUD of your journey. I see how much happier you are and how you enjoy all the stuff with the kids that you wouldn't be doing if you hadn't lost the weight. Keep going LOVE YA MOM
    2165 days ago
    It sure doesn't take long, you are right! Honestly I have a lot of those type of slips right after achieving a big goal. I think getting to something like a 2 year anniversary, an X number of pounds goal, etc. we give ourselves permission to 'take a break' - and that's okay for one meal, but you know what happens when we extend that break. I know you'll get that weight right off again!
    2165 days ago
    I’m right there with ya! I have made excuse after excuse about not having time to exercise. Yet, I have had time to do other things. I have chosen other things over the exercise. Plain & simple. I’m trying to get back on track too so I don’t get too far derailed. I need a plan of action!
    2165 days ago
    Sure sounds familiar. Isn't it easy to just derail off the diet train? We just might have collided since I've been a bit derailed since Mid-June and I gained about 6 pounds too. And I only lose about 2 pounds a month so this is really bad but like you said, reality check time.

    BTW you have done an amazing job and you look great! This is just a small little derail so remember We know what to do and we CAN do it! here we go....
    2165 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/18/2012 8:34:02 AM
    Love the attitude!!!!! ;) emoticon
    2165 days ago
    I so understand. You will knock those 6 pounds down and here is hoping that at least 3 of those are water weight. emoticon emoticon
    2166 days ago
    With that outlook I'm sure you'll be laughing at that scale in no time!
    2166 days ago
  • LEASIM1231
    Wow! Just what I needed to read. Good to know I am NOT alone. I was feeling pretty down this morning. I had just reached my pre-pregnancy weight and was like 4 or 5 pounds from my goal. My parents and aunt came in June, we went to France and I have just continued vacationing at home. Last week the 2 kilo gain was a big gup, but this last week at HOME, was another one! Now I have 10 pounds from my goal-wah! But I weighed this morning and while being upset in the shower decided that it is good that I am upset enough to start from NOW. So I am eating again my oatmeal with fruit in in for breakfast, planning to go on a walk this morning.
    2166 days ago
    You had a great time and that's the most important thing. You acknowledge your mistakes and that's the second most important thing. We've all been there, I know how awful it feels, but the sooner you get back on track, the less damage you'll have made. Because the bad thing with these situations is that we easily get the "just one more day" approach and then we lose sense of time! So, start making the right choices TODAY!
    2166 days ago
    I know you'll get back on track and knock those pounds off quickly. I can have a bad weekend and be up 3 pounds, and that's with working out. It usually is back to where it was pretty quickly, so sometimes I do think it's water weight from the sodium in junky food. This time of year is so hard because everyone is having cook outs and parties, and I do my best not to overeat, but even eating small amounts of that stuff adds up to a ton of calories. Hang in there. You have come so far and I know it's discouraging to get on the scale and see an increase, but it's good you're catching it now and doing something about it. emoticon
    2166 days ago
    emoticon It's not too late to reverse what's been done, you have the right mindset to focus on the present and positive and get back to business! I've been there too, I think we all have. The memories are what you will remember of these past weeks, not the weight gain, and not the food. emoticon
    2166 days ago
    I am in the same boat! I say confess & get back on it, that's what I'm trying to do!!!
    2166 days ago
    You did it once you can do it again. Don't feel too bad I gained 3 pound in as many days. I 'm just glad my long weekend wasn't any longer. I will lose mine too. emoticon
    2166 days ago
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    2166 days ago
    This sounds just like me...only i gained back a little (LOT) more then 6 lbs.
    And since you are one of my biggest inspirations & motivations i feel not so alone in this knowing it happens to everyone.
    Now we just need to get back to what we know we can do. emoticon
    Thank you for sharing
    2166 days ago
    Oh Holly, just wanted to come clean and let you know, you're not the only one! I've put 6 lbs back on in the past month and i'm sure it would be more if I wouldn't be keeping up with my workouts. Definitely a reality check! My poor choices stop NOW too! emoticon emoticon
    2166 days ago
  • WISDOM73
    Hey Holly, completely get your drift! A reality check is very good to reafirm your goals and get yourself going again. I tend to come accross this saying on Sparks quite a bit: fall down six times and get up seven. When I get off track, I feel it in body and everything is different no matter how much food I had or how little exercise I put in. My trick to getting back on the wagon is to stick with the basics: water. I go back to drinking at least 8 x 8oz a day and everything seems to come together. Also, I usually refrain from making all kinds of 'decisions' about how I ate and what it was that I ate. Again, I go back to the basics with regards to portions, veggies and fruit, and so on.

    Thank you for your honest sharing. Being honest with myself is my bigest asset. Then opneness and willingness to change does the rest.
    2166 days ago
    (snicker at notaboutheface)..

    BR>Well done!! That was quite a little bender you were on! Who are you trying to be, ME????

    Knock it off.

    You're welcome.

    LOL, Love you, Holly. I know you will be fine.
    2166 days ago
    I had a really hard time on vacation too and ended up not weighing myself for several weeks because I knew I had gained weight. You are on the right track. You indulged and had a good time with friends and family. You didn't commit a crime. So just look at for what it is, just a bump on your long journey and move on. That's all any of us can do. I think what I learned from my whole vacation experience is that I can't equate food with having a good time and being on vacation is not a license to overeat. But it's easier said that done. I am sure it will continue being a challenge for me. You are going to do great. Don't be discouraged :-)
    2166 days ago
    Glad you're getting back on track!
    2166 days ago
    Is it wrong I wanted to yell "amateur" since I usually gain twice that on our 2 week vacations? ;-)

    You'll be surprised how quickly most of it comes off because of the water weight. Just remember the lesson, keep it in your back pocket as you go through life because that situation will present itself in the future and you'll have a reference point. You're jumping back to it and that's what matters!

    2166 days ago
  • MANDYJ73
    oh Holly... Thanks for the confession... you just kicked me in the butt too! I have been eating too much too! Now that I am in relationship-land... it is so much easier to be in control when you only eat at home and alone... my gain has been 5 lbs in the last month... I am totally aware of it and know how to change it... started logging everything again today,... that is totally the key for me!

    I know we can do it! Get it girl!
    2166 days ago
  • COOKIE_AT_51
    Glad you are back on the road after your detour. :)
    2166 days ago
    It happens so easily. It seems even easier when we get out routine with vacations, no matter how long or how short. Vacations and social life circles around food so much. I have been challenged too even when it's just a summer day outing. Last week I feasted on fish and chips at the beach. One piece would have been enough but I went for two because I was hungry. Then the onion rings looked like the best so had to order those. I was full before I finished half the meal but did I stop? No...it tasted too good. And so the battle goes on. Now that you've recognized the need to get back on track you have taken the first step. Thanks for being brave enough to come clean because it happens to manhy of us and we just don't dare admit it, especially publicly.
    You can do it...You know what to do...You have done incredibly well...Keep at it...... emoticon Jump to it!!!
    2166 days ago
    I hear ya! But at least you know you have to get back on program. A lot of people just quit and say "I slipped so I will never get done with this". Fact of the matter is that you never will be done with this. This is a lifestyle change, and as long as you get back on program, you'll come out a winner!!

    I keep a lot of small fruit around in plain site so I never have to look for a snack I leave out strawberries, cubed melons, cherries, kiwis, bananas, tangerines. These are all in the front, face-level in my fridge, or on my bar.

    I did make a lowfat cake the other day, so I am having a piece tonight. It's my guilty pleasure, but it's egg whites and applesauce rather than eggs and oil.
    2166 days ago
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