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One of THOSE days.....

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

where for some unexplainable reason I seem to want to burst into tears all the time! I can easily trace back this high state of emotion to a very stressful last few days, so I know where it's coming from and I know that it will all pass soon, but sitting in the midst of it is still hard.

At lunch, I went and got myself a cappucino and a selection of four cookies from a nearby bakery. I got them, enjoyed them, and immediately felt better. As I was aware that I needed to treat myself kindly, I gave myself permission to eat whatever I wanted. Usually, on a Tuesday I have a cappucino and a treat in the afternoon. I was perfectly prepared to give myself 'double', but when the time came, I found it wasn't what I really wanted at all. The cookies and cappucino earlier had satisfied me enough.

On my way home I knew that the next step to 'getting my head right again' would be a jog. In fact, I knew that I needed to jog. It would probably bring me back into a rational state of mind. It seems I go jogging when I'm unhappy now......

After my jog I got home and had another listen to myself - I needed a bubble bath and a cup of Jasmine white tea. I had the tea, I needed to go to the corner store to get the bubble bath. Off I went. Entered the corner store, got the bubble bath, thought about getting my favourite chocolate (but they didn't have it), and so I left. Yes, you read correctly. I left the corner store without chocolate......

Got home, ran the bath, lit the candle, put some music on and gave myself some time to unwind.......with one vital ingredient missing: chocolate

Now, I don't quite know what it was about today. My lunch time cookies were definitely high calorie and chocolatey enough - but usually I end up blowing my budget on chocolate when I feel like this. Not today.

Something has changed. There was a new thought in my head that reminded me that I don't feel better after I've had a lot of chocolate - and I listened to it. Not in a big drum roll kind of way. The thought came, I heard it, I went, yeah, that's true, and considered the next option: jogging, jasmine tea and bubble bath.

This is new for me. Will it last? I guess I'll have to see how I hold out tomorrow......
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    I think you handled this bad emotional day very well.
    Instead of eating mindlessly, you took a minute to think and found out what you really wanted, and that was cookies and capuccino and jogging and a bubble bath and some time for yourself.
    I hope I will do so well myself too when it's my turn!

    2106 days ago
    Maybe it was because you had given yourself permission to have it. I find that if I try to ban something I immediately crave it, whereas if I don't, I find that it's not as attractive as it once was and I can just keep it at 'as a treat ' level. Well done for your adult way of looking at things, and I hope you feel less tearful now. emoticon
    2106 days ago
    YAY! Things are finally starting to stick! I finally am to the point where I look for food when I'm hungry and I REALLY think about what I really want to eat instead of just reaching for junk. Great job and keep it up!
    2107 days ago
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