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5 Year Sparkiversary

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

I love writing in journals. Perhaps because I am an only child, writing thoughts on paper is my way of conversing with myself without looking like a lunatic. Blogging is similar, but no longer talking solely to myself.

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It's fascinating to travel back in time to see what I was thinking way back when.

Except my teenage journals. That's full of embarrassing drivel about some guy I liked, we passed notes, what did the smiley face at the end mean, did he like me, I think I liked him, and should I let him know (for the record, no, I didn't). Anne Frank diaries they were not. I grimaced at the thought that if I ever have children/grandchildren, they might find this, anticipating pearls of wisdom from grannie, and being utterly disappointed. I saved them the dishonor and quietly discarded the evidence.

On the other end of the spectrum, my journals from college were fascinating. I was quite the philosopher, as we all are at that age, I suppose.

...and then it descended into embarrassing drivel about a boyfriend. That boyfriend was so bad, I nearly gagged at how I positively beamed in my descriptions. I removed those sections and discarded them. I kept my philosophical musings. Now children and grandchildren would have to speculate on the missing pages. What secret was grandma hiding? Was there a hidden family fortune? Did grannie know who really shot Kennedy? No kids, grannie was hiding the evidence of yet another stupid boyfriend.

I went through my old Spark blogs tonight because I was looking for something I thought I wrote. I didn't find what I was looking for because I got caught up in remembering other stories. One of the surprising revelations: this month is my 5 year Sparkiversary.

I've been a member of Spark since July 3, 2007 . My first entry in August 2007 is pretty interesting. I blogged about how my rice noodle lunch left me hungry, and I vaguely had an understanding that protein might somehow help this.

My next entries aren't until November 2009. Not sure what motivated me to start writing, but it seemed I was a whirlwind. Like some kind of dietary confessional, I had to tell the story of where my weight came from.

In subsequent years, I blogged about constantly battling with my weight. I'd lose, only to regain. I told tales of losing and regaining the same 5 lbs over and over. I found tales of gaining weight over the holidays and being downtrodden.

In January 2010, I was so close to the answer I sought. I blogged about insulin, and its effect on blood sugar in even non diabetics like myself. Except I needed to take it a step further. I suppose I wasn't ready then.

I blogged about a friend's success with a low carb diet, and I wrote a rather dismissive response. I claimed that I could never give up mashed potatoes at dinner. Well, if one has to eat their own words, it's tastier if it's about food.

I found a blog that described my lean body mass when I weighed 160lbs as ~92lbs, which is exactly what it is now. Except I had 44% bodyfat then and now I have 28%. We all have killer abs underneath our fat suits, we just can't see them. I'm still working on finding mine.

I describe my discoveries with low carb and paleo. The message of these blogs written with the purpose of hoping to inspire the hopeless. If I could find a way, then anyone can. That the hungry can be well fed, and still lose weight. If diet got you into a metabolic mess, then diet can get you out. No matter what diet paradigm you chose, it requires discipline, perseverance, dedication, and commitment to the lifestyle.

I wonder what my stories this year will be...

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    2171 days ago
    Happy Sparkversary to you! 44% to 28% is a great accomplishment, and keep writing those journals! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2174 days ago
    Very nice! You have certainly helped me in this Low Carb wilderness.

    Chalk up those old journals into the same category as staying with the fashions of the time....I still have picture in 70s leisure suits, 80s big hair, 90s attitude, yadda-yadda-yadda.

    Then again, I read some of my musings from college and remind myself how incredibly perceptive I was!
    2174 days ago
    Happy Spark-iversary! I never did keep a journal or diary or anything resembling them. Not because I didn't think about it, just that I was so busy living the life I did there was never the time or inclination to do so.

    Enjoy your days while you can. emoticon
    2174 days ago


    Yup. Those old journals are interesting for a bit, but definitely not something you'd like your kids to have seen. My kids already know that I wasn't actually BORN wise, I just got there one stupid mistake at a time, just lilke they will.


    (Wise!? *snorts* As if.)
    2174 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/11/2012 10:53:50 AM
    happy sparkversary!!!!!! emoticon Oh, was I the one who led you to the dark side? I think I remember a mashed potato comment. I would have said that about bread two years ago myself. funny how we keep moving forward despite ourselves.
    2174 days ago
  • BILL60
    Happy Sparkversary.
    2174 days ago
    Awesome blog post, and happy Sparkversary! You definitely weren't the only one to journal about boys!
    2174 days ago
    Journals can sure help to get through tough times...even teenage angst. I learned this years ago from an English teacher who made us write in our journals everyday. Years later, I was embarrassed to read what I wrote, knowing that this poor woman had to read it. Those journals hit the trash bin.

    Years later, when my kids were little, I was going through a tough time. Writing my thoughts down helped me muddle my way back to sanity. lol. Those writings went in the trash, too. I didn't want my kids to see some of the frustrations I had trying to be their mom. It wasn't them, it was me.

    It seems like the only time I blog is after a big trip or when things aren't clicking for me. The bad part about blogging is that it's forever. Can't throw them away! They're out in cyberspace for all to see. I guess I think more before I type!

    Happy Sparkversary!!
    2174 days ago
    I loved this blog! I used to keep diaries as well, but when I moved out of my family's house, I dumped them because like you, I felt they were too embarrassing. Thinking about future generations trying to guess about those missing pages from the college years made me laugh! I totally understand your motivation, though....haha. Wow, 5 years on Spark People! Happy SP Anniversary to you, and congratulations. 28% bodyfat is LOVELY! Good for you, that's a lot of hard work. emoticon
    2174 days ago
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