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Motivation -- What Lies Within Us that SPARKS!

Monday, July 09, 2012

Ok, so I am at work right now... so this blog won't be full of pictures of me, but please bare with me.

As I read all of your emoticon comments from my latest blogs, I wanted to tell you that I am so happy that you all get motivated and inspired through my words, experiences and the commitment that I share with all of you. I think it totally rocks!

In this blog, I want to tell you what really motivates ME!

First and foremost, there is nothing more motivating then the second after I complete my bootcamp-style workouts with my trainer. It's in that moment where sweat is dripping from me in places that SparkPeople won't let me talk about emoticon and all those normal sweat places ... haha.

So visualize it... I am 340 pounds of outrageous sweating
I am gasping for air... my lungs are fighting to push against the fat surrounding them in order to get air into my body...

Then something magical happens: I realize that I am not dead!

I realize that it sounds ridiculous, but here's the thing -- When I workout to my full potential, my mind is SCREAMING at me the entire time! It's telling me so many things like:

-You can't do that, you're FAT!
-Who are you trying to impress?
-Your legs are going to fall off if you do that again!
-You can't breathe, you are dead!
-This is not normal, no way, not normal!
-Your trainer is trying to KILL YOU!

And it just continues! The whole time my body is in gear, my brain is NOT happy about it!

But in that second right as I finish the workout, and I realize that I am NOT dead, my brain looks over my body and a funny thing called CONFIDENCE peers out and sticks its tounge out at my brain!

Even though I just pushed myself to the limit, maybe I even fell off the step because I got a little carried away with myself... I did it. And it makes me want to do it again! It makes me CRAVE my next workout. It's my personal drug of choice!

Then a funny thing happens... Life gets in the way of the workout and suddenly you forget how great the first post-workout second feels. This is exactly how I fall off the wagon each and every time.

The same occurence happens with emoticon motivation too! When I finished my Color Run in Chicago (see my last blog), I was on such a high that I wanted to do it all over again! The pain of every step was gone and I just felt the adrenaline pumping from the accomplishment I had.

I was ready to do a emoticon a day... just to get my skills better. I talked to friends and we discussed planning times to meet up and 5K away...

Then life got in the way. Birthday parties and vacations trumped fitness and food replaced workouts.

What is going to make this time different?


I have so many things going for me this time around. Because of all of you, I have an entire COMMUNITY of people that I need to talk with... to check in with.

The reason I started training with a personal trainer to begin with was the commitment. I am the kind of girl that doesn't miss an appointment. Knowing I am messing up someone else's day by not showing up makes me show up... even on my worst days.

The same goes for all of you... if I suddenly float off into the abyss, I hope that you all seek me out. I will do the same for anyone who asks me to! I know how that workout feels, and I know you do too.

That's all for me today, I'll check back in AFTER my workout tonight!

Because it's one more step I have to take in order to BECOME Holly!

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    Nice blog!
    2105 days ago
    I LOVE that last pic. "I hereby promise that I will become a success story". I'm so stealing that line!
    2106 days ago
    Hi Holly,

    This is an awesome blog. How is it that we do more for others - such as not breaking an appointment - than we do for ourselves?. However, it's not going to happen, but ***if*** you ever did manage to 'float away' - as you say - I will do all I can to find you and bring you right back into the fold. Hope, and asking hereby, you'd do that for me, "cuz" after all, we just don't want to break commitments, do we. ;) ;)

    No chance of me 'floating away' right now. Having awesome days and giving it 100%. It's great that you share how hard you work. Keep up the good work! By the sounds of it you're doing just awesome. You've got an fantastic trainer too!

    Onwards!!! "Rocky"
    2111 days ago
  • RABBIT8301
    I almost didn't do my workout tonight but I decided to do it and after posting my minutes I read your blog and it's always nice to know others are in the same boat as me. We are all success stories in the making, it's just nice to know we're not going at it alone. emoticon
    2112 days ago
    You are awesome and inspiring! I love this blog!

    2112 days ago
    just read further loved it. ok I am quoting facebool The smile is a bodies best curve-flaunt it!! workouts feel great and being able to smile makes it worth it
    2112 days ago
    emoticon you make it real.
    2112 days ago
    You are truly amazing. Your words make me want to work out right now, at 10:40 PM, even though I already swam for an hour today. Way to be a huge motivation to many. Rock on, girl!
    2112 days ago
    Rock Out Holly!!! That post workout happens and it feels great. Even though I am just to general fitness every time I finish I am proud of the fact that I got out there and did it. Keep on getting to that trainer and completing that 5K Your Way!!!

    2112 days ago
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    2112 days ago
  • VICTORIA1228
    You are very inspiring! Way to go! emoticon
    2113 days ago
    You are such a great inspiration!!! You rock girl!!
    2113 days ago
  • AUNTB63
    emoticon working out the way YOU do is HARD...but doable....YOU did it and YOU will do it again..and again....until that day comes when you remember (all night long) how that first work out second feels. I heard from someone that sweat is fat crying........I love it when my fat cries (even in "those places") means I am getting the best of that pesky fat. emoticon all we have to do is emoticon . Have another awesome workout tonight. emoticon
    2113 days ago
    This was so inspiring. Everything you said rang true for me and I could totally relate to it. With this kind of attitude you are gonna be unstoppable on your weight loss journey. You are a success story in the making and I am thrilled to get to be a part of it by you sharing your journey. So glad we became friends. Keep up the great work!
    2113 days ago
    You, my friend, are emoticon !!!!

    I particularly love this part: " So visualize it... I am 340 pounds of outrageous sweating
    I am gasping for air... my lungs are fighting to push against the fat surrounding them in order to get air into my body...

    Then something magical happens: I realize that I am not dead! "

    I am going to print this out to read again and again!

    Keep up the amazing work, you are an inspiration! Thank you for being here!
    2113 days ago
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