Falling off the train
Sunday, July 08, 2012
I fell off the train.
I slowly stopped exercise because of life events (getting busy at work, getting shingles, getting lazy...) and then my cheat days turned into everyday.
Then... came all the guilt and shame.
I am publicly announcing that I started at 255 pounds, lost down to 220 pounds and I now today weigh 239 pounds.
I kept waiting on the right day to restart my program (the first of the month, the end of summer, when it stops being hot, etc.) but today I rose up recognizing the excuses and facing my fears.
Today is the day.
The only goal I am making is that I am going to weigh 135 pounds. I am taking it one day at a time and I am working everyday towards my goal. I can't go back to a size 20, uncomfortable, sleepless nights and diabetes episodes all the time. I just can't.
I ask for your prayers and support.
God bless you...