Guilt the gift that keeps on giving
Tuesday, July 03, 2012
I found out my dog has cancer this week. She is a St. Bernard and already 8 yrs old so she only has a couple of years left. I have decided to make the time she has left good time rather than torture her with surgery and chemotherapy. She isn't uncomfortable now and since she only has 1-2 more years of natural life anyway, I don't feel too bad. If/when she gets uncomfortable I will have her put to sleep.
I feel a little guilty though.
The dog is actually my ex husband's. When we split he was supposed to get her at some point but has never had a stable enough life to take her. I don't dislike her but I never felt that strong pet owner bond. Truthfully I have been counting down her time for the last year or so because she is such a burden. She breaks the fence regularly, she attacks other dogs, she has hysterics over fireworks, and she eats a ton of very expensive food. So now I feel guilty for wishing her time to be at an end because it almost is at the end.