I'm back! Again...

Sunday, July 01, 2012

I used to be so into this site, and it helped me lose 60 lbs! I've tried a few times to get back into it, but haven't been sucessful. Here I am trying again. I was thinking about deleting this account and starting fresh, but don't want to lose my past either... we'll see.

I went to a amusement park with friends and my boyfriend yesterday and the second ride we go on... I don't fit. I wanted to die. The person working the ride was trying to push down on the secruity bar so hard and trying to click the buckle in... It was so embarrassing in front of all my friends and my boyfriend I wanted to die. He tried several times till I just said stop I don't want to ride let me off. Worst day ever. No one said anything about it the rest of the day, and I just said I was to scared to go on the other rides, but to make the whole situation worse everyone was mad that I wasn't going on any more rides and kept giving me a hard time calling me a downer and such... I just wanted to scream out I'M TO FAT TO FIT OKAY!! Ugh what a frustrating day.

Anyhow, I'm Amy I just turned 27 and I live near Chicago. I've been dating the love of my life for 2 and a half years. I have a daughter, she's almost 7. I work at Ulta, been there for 6 and a half years and have the cutest fluffy white dog named Pauly D (yes my bf named him after Jersey Shore). My weight fluctuates EVERYDAY (or maybe it's just my cheapy scale lol) I go between 275 and 279. I've never weighed this much, even when I was pregnant my highest was 260. I don't know how this happened but here we are. I've successfully lost 60 pounds before (a little after my daughter was born) but I used diet pills, phentermine, I've never lost weight on my own. I'm scared, I don't know if I can do it on my own...
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    Very Sorry about the park, friends can be so oblivious. I hope you stick with it! Keep it up and you can! :-)
    3162 days ago
    Ditto ! you lost how many pounds before? You have already done it . You just need a sharper focus and staying on the path to what you want. It won't be easy but you have already taken your firsy step. Good Luck! emoticon
    3162 days ago
    You can do it!! Believe in yourself! I was at my heaviest ever at 215 I got there all by myself. I have 3 children, the youngest is 8 I could not blame it on baby fat anymore. I did not think I could do it either, but I am doing it! I have lost 39 pounds so far!! If I can do it anyone can do it!! Get someone on board with you to exercise and eat healthy with. My husband and I are doing it together and I don't think I would have gotten this far without him. Good luck and take "I can't" out of your vocabulary YOU CAN!!
    3162 days ago
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