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Fear of re-failure

Thursday, June 28, 2012

I am having a hard time believing in the weightloss process. I see tons of successful people, I tell myself to be like them, and yet there is still something in the back of my mind that tells me I'm going to fail. I also hear that I'm not meant to be thin, fattening foods are so tasty, why give them up?, etc. It's frustrating to me that I do good things and then binge or be lazy. I don't know how to not be hard on myself. I wish I can jump into the brain of a thin person and learn their mannerisms and their thought patterns around food. I feel like my brain and body are so out of synch in regards to food.

The other day I was attentively listening to someone telling me about what it was like to do and get off of drugs. I couldn't help but realize that I could substitute the word food for every drug name he listed and applied it to me. At the same time, I know I need food to live. I also know that I get joy from cooking and creating dishes. I'm confused....
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  • DONIKA75
    I feel you pain, its especially hard with PCOS cause it feels like you have to work 3 times as hard as other people to lose weight. But don't give up! You can do it, and even more importantly, you deserve to achieve the goals that are in your heart. Keep taking steps every day to improve and you'll get there at your pace and it will be worth it. -Donika
    2151 days ago
    I do believe food is an addiction. There is an Overeater Anon program that I know someone goes to. They do use the black book from AA and substitute food as the 'drug'. Hang in there. Keep positive and keep going!
    2152 days ago
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