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Whine and Dine

Monday, June 25, 2012

I don't usually whine, but today is the day. I am having a hard time dealing with the stress of not knowing about our cabin in the fire. I am in a state of free floating anxiety and have continued to make emotional eating decisions. I am at the top of my 5 pound "weight zone" and not happy about how I am handling this.

We don't have any news about when we might get back in to see the cabin. In fact the south west part of the fire where we are located is in danger again. We are right up against forest land where there iare a lot of beetle kill trees which catch fire easily and the fire is making a "run" down the mountain toward our part of the fire area again.

It is just watch and wait and I don't do that very well. I feel restless and anxious. I'm not exercising outside because it's been over 100 degrees for 3 or 4 days straight. I didn't go to the gym over the weekend out of lethargy. I did bike outside early this morning and did my gym strength training today.

What I have been doing is eating large portions of food and snacking between meals. I have had a few poor food choices but I haven't binged. However, as you would expect I am hovering at the top of my allowed weight fluctuation and am fearful of going up the scale.

I will stay within my calorie range today and call someone to talk with when I get stressed. I will try to get out of the house and stop listening for news on TV and the computer. I need to break my cycle of anxiety and try to find some things to do to get my mind of the cabin.

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    I know it is stressful, waiting and not knowing. In situations like this sometimes I'm able to get a better perspective by asking myself two things: "What is the worst that could happen?", and "Do I have any control over it?". If I'm prepared for the worst and there's nothing I can do to change it, I'm better able to let go of worrying over something I can't control.

    Hang in there!
    2123 days ago
    You can do this! Stay busy!
    2123 days ago
    Well you certainly are on the roller-coaster, and to have anxiety is okay, just how you respond to it. Sounds like you are identifying the problem and trying to address it. I will sure pray that your cabin is saved, and that you will not succomb to temptation!

    2124 days ago
    I can so relate to your situation, as I'm a born worrier, too!! I have been working hard on learning to give up trying to control things I HAVE no control over. It's not easy but sometimes I can do it.
    2124 days ago
    emoticon I don't deal well with waiting either. I know this is such a stressful time for you and it would be for me too. Like you, I tend to eat too much when under the stress like that. A sudden stressful event that is short term doesn't affect me as much but the ongoing day to day stress over a period of time is so much harder to deal with. I don't know what else to say except that my thoughts and prayers remain with all of you affected by the fires that are causing so much loss in several states. Hang in there and stick to your plan for the day.
    2124 days ago
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