Monday, June 25, 2012

My sinus infection and The Spring Crud is trying to come back; was congested this morning and feel like I'm under water, with major brain fog. So now I know, THAT'S why I was feeling unwell Sat and Sun.

Yesterday I wondered if it was all the kid drama - while they were in school I timed it so that I could have some respite while they were in school, and return to the house most of the time after their bedtime. But school has been out 2 weeks and they are wearing on my nerves and my spirit. I love kids but these are wild and loud and have not been taught to clean up after themselves, etc. One is in an inpatient treatment facility for cutting herself - she didn't even make it one week out of school here before going off the deep end. She comes home this Thursday. It has been much quieter without her, but still oh-so-loud.

So I wondered if it was the kids being out of school that was wearing on me and making me feel run down, but with this morning's congestion I know it's a sinus infection trying to come back.

I will take extra SinuFix and C. This morning could not wake up and am STILL not awake. Don't want to move. Have two places to apply at, and then go to work from there, but all I want to do is go back to bed.

More drama with my host family - the lady in the wheelchair rang the bell this morning at 7:30. No one told me she is coming. I was asleep and almost didn't answer the door. She says she is staying on the living room couch for a couple weeks. While they are kind to take her in, they have so many internal problems they really shouldn't, and, this time I am working. Last time I am the only one who fed her, and I won't be able to take care of her this time. So I am shocked she is here, plus know it's going to cause major drama, fuel to the fire, plus they are packing to move, plus I won't be here to care for her, which I already told her. In addition we have a new kitten, who constantly cries for me because I'm the only one who babies it and cares for it, and a teen girl staying with them for the summer, and a lady brought over her 1 year old yesterday, which they are going to start babysitting today.

Ai yi yi I think I will just stay gone all day, every day, for as late as possible. It's too much.

Big change for a single used to living alone. 3-ring circus.

Still it is better than living out of my car. I am grateful for having a bed in a heated / air conditioned room, kitchen, shower and washer & dryer while it lasted. They are moving July 15 and I will need to find another place to stay then as they are downsizing and there'll be no room for me.
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    I had no idea you were having such a hard time. I have been sparking more because I feel sickly. I can't seem to focus on any real work. I am glad I came upon your blogs today. The trust zone. Yup, that is important. Plan as well as you can and then trust in the Lord. I am praying for you! I am praying that help comes along for you. God can do this and wants to have us in a good place, not struggling like you are now. I pray S/He lands you in a nice home and takes care of your financial needs, too. It will happen! Chris emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2123 days ago
    Holy Cow for chaos!!! I could NOT tolerate all of that. That is worse and more stressful even than what i am dealing with in my harrowing circumstances here. If I lived there I would surely have a nervous breakdown. It seems you land from one nerve wracking environment to another. I hope you can soon find a calmer place to live; even if it is a cheap one room somewhere where only you have the key.

    2125 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Take care of yourself my friend. My hubby is sick, too.
    2125 days ago
    I hope your health returns soon. Either a 3 ring circus or a zoo! And it sounds like the kitty is the quietest!
    2127 days ago
    I hope you have a speedy recovery and that you can find a job and move out early. There are too many people living in this house.
    2127 days ago
    get well soon
    2127 days ago
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