More divorce/moving rambling

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Thanks for all the kind words and support. Means alot to me!! Especially since my two best friends have both moved away in the last year and a half and with their work and family schedules its hard to find time to talk to them.

It is harder than I expected, I didn't think about it but figured both us wanting this it wouldn't be as stressful as it is, and didn't think I would feel the need to "mourn" the lose and change. living on my own and being a single parent again will take some getting used to again but I believe I can do it.

We have been getting along great and he hasn't done any drinking so that's made it easier. He has stayed with his brother a few times, times when he planned on drinking, and seems to be accepting and ready for us to be separated so the smart ass comments, and such have stopped.

Have the contract signed on the new house and appraisal came in perfect so everything is set on that. Can't close on the house til Wednesday b/c of new Government regs on how long you have to have between signing papers and closing. However seller did give us a set of keys so we have been able to move some stuff in already.

I have the majority of the packing done but am really starting to freak out! We separated the stuff in the basement and OMG!! I have so much stuff!! I have my normal stuff plus when my mom died I took her stuff and when my grandparents moved into assisted living I also wound up with their know stuff you don't feel you should throw away or sell but that no one wants! At some point I need to go through it and sell or pitch stuff but I don't have the time for that right now. Anyway I'm really freaking out about moving the storage stuff. There is alot and I physically can not handle very many trips up and down the stairs, especially carrying heavy stuff. We have to move stuff up from current basement and down into the basement at the new house. I wanted to be be completely out on the day of the closing but there's no way with all that stuff. We have baseball games 3 out of 5 days this week and my son works all day on Saturday.

I hate to ask for help, especially when its largely my fault b/c of my weight and health problems cause by weight, but I don't see any way around it. Guess I'll try to round up a bunch of people for Saturday or Sunday morning.

Logically I know I'm obese but packing and moving and going through stuff has really shown me how heavy and out of shape I am. It's sad and while I can change it for the future nothing I can do about now. I load boxes in my little car, drive to the house, unload them and am exhausted and in pain already. My foot and ankle are swollen all the time now. I just can't sit and keep them up like i need to. Like I said I know I can change it for future and plan to get back into my workout routine once we get moved but disappointed with myself and my limitations now!

The last few weeks I was so stressed my stomach wasn't holding food, everything was running through me..well that has switched and now I'm back to my norm of wanting to binge and eat comfort food. I'm trying to control it but also not making that my main focus. I need to get my son and I moved and get our life settled and then I can focus on myself more.

And now back to work...Thanks for listening! :)
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  • SKY2012
    you are such a sweet angel, hugsssssssssssssss
    2452 days ago
  • _KATHY
    While you are thinking "logically" know that by just putting one tired foot in front of the other, day by day, you will be in your house with your feet up relaxing. It's going to happen. Then you will be on your way to your new life and whatever it holds. You have a great attitude and I know you will be fine
    2464 days ago
    You're in my prayers, dear...
    2464 days ago
    See if you can round up some teenagers who will work for cheap but can manage those up and down the stairs. I totally cannot do that any longer, and I hire teens to do all the running for me. Saves my legs and knees, that's for sure.
    Sending hugs, I know this is hard but I know you will get through this. One day at a time.
    2464 days ago
    I know that no matter how much you know you're doing the right thing, separation of any kind is stressful. Give yourself as much love as you can during this time.

    I'm sure money is tight, but can you afford movers? We've used them the last two moves and it was always worth it. The last time we moved with family/friends we ended up with two people hurt. I've found if you can get everything they need to move in one area of the house - old and new - it can really save $$.

    I know what you mean about the stuff. We had stuff left over from my husbands grandmother and parents. I made a rule: If I hadn't opened the box in over a year it was going in the dumpster. I used the same rule after I moved in to get rid of stuff we brought with us and didn't need. (My mom turned 71 this year and I am constantly on her to get rid of all the crap in her house because I don't want to have to go through it. Grim, I know, but I hated that part when my Grandma passed.)

    Message me if you need me. I'll be there.

    2464 days ago
    My thoughts are with you.
    Soon this will all be behind you and a new fresh start with endless possibilities will be yours for the taking.
    Stay focused and remember to stop and breath slowly several times a day.
    It will help you keep your peace.

    Hugs from California
    2464 days ago
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