More divorce/moving rambling
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Thanks for all the kind words and support. Means alot to me!! Especially since my two best friends have both moved away in the last year and a half and with their work and family schedules its hard to find time to talk to them.
It is harder than I expected, I didn't think about it but figured both us wanting this it wouldn't be as stressful as it is, and didn't think I would feel the need to "mourn" the lose and change. living on my own and being a single parent again will take some getting used to again but I believe I can do it.
We have been getting along great and he hasn't done any drinking so that's made it easier. He has stayed with his brother a few times, times when he planned on drinking, and seems to be accepting and ready for us to be separated so the smart ass comments, and such have stopped.
Have the contract signed on the new house and appraisal came in perfect so everything is set on that. Can't close on the house til Wednesday b/c of new Government regs on how long you have to have between signing papers and closing. However seller did give us a set of keys so we have been able to move some stuff in already.
I have the majority of the packing done but am really starting to freak out! We separated the stuff in the basement and OMG!! I have so much stuff!! I have my normal stuff plus when my mom died I took her stuff and when my grandparents moved into assisted living I also wound up with their stuff..you know stuff you don't feel you should throw away or sell but that no one wants! At some point I need to go through it and sell or pitch stuff but I don't have the time for that right now. Anyway I'm really freaking out about moving the storage stuff. There is alot and I physically can not handle very many trips up and down the stairs, especially carrying heavy stuff. We have to move stuff up from current basement and down into the basement at the new house. I wanted to be be completely out on the day of the closing but there's no way with all that stuff. We have baseball games 3 out of 5 days this week and my son works all day on Saturday.
I hate to ask for help, especially when its largely my fault b/c of my weight and health problems cause by weight, but I don't see any way around it. Guess I'll try to round up a bunch of people for Saturday or Sunday morning.
Logically I know I'm obese but packing and moving and going through stuff has really shown me how heavy and out of shape I am. It's sad and while I can change it for the future nothing I can do about now. I load boxes in my little car, drive to the house, unload them and am exhausted and in pain already. My foot and ankle are swollen all the time now. I just can't sit and keep them up like i need to. Like I said I know I can change it for future and plan to get back into my workout routine once we get moved but disappointed with myself and my limitations now!
The last few weeks I was so stressed my stomach wasn't holding food, everything was running through me..well that has switched and now I'm back to my norm of wanting to binge and eat comfort food. I'm trying to control it but also not making that my main focus. I need to get my son and I moved and get our life settled and then I can focus on myself more.
And now back to work...Thanks for listening! :)