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*sigh* I am so disgusted...

Thursday, June 21, 2012

How many times do I have to start over before I get it?

I was doing so well. Really well. My DH was on board, walking every day and even running on some. I was doing my thing, usually swimming and the recumbent bike or walking. But we were doing it. Watching our diet and working out and actually seeing results.

And then Labor Day hit.

When I say "hit", I sort of mean it literally. My MIL ended up in the hospital. 2 days later my phone rang at 7am with a tearful "I'm in jail..." from my kid. EVERYTHING in my life switched gears...from me and my health, to the people in my life and their issues.

I know, I know. I should be able to do both. I shouldn't let outside things steal my focus. If I don't take care of me, I can't take care of anyone else. I know. And? Easier said than done.

In one weekend I became nursemaid, caregiver, parole officer, worry wart and, oh year, STRESS EATER.

Now, I have been all that before, but this time was just harder for whatever reason. I think cuz I was so focused on my own stuff that I never saw it coming, not that I could have, but sort of like when you're looking over here...and you get blindsided from over there.

OK, so. It has been almost a year. My MIL has lung cancer and is living in AL with my BIL. Not an ideal situation, but it's what she wants. My kid has really taken this legal issue to heart and has done a 180 in regards to what she does with her free time. Um, which has curbed her party girl ways, but brought about another issue...which will be here around Christmas.

I do not want to be the fat Grama, so I have 6 months to get myself together and do this for real. Time to start chanting my own hype:

Here we go...again.
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    I am SO GLAD you posted. I know you are supremely frustrated with how many do-overs you've had, but! I am so proud of you for coming back to this again and again and refusing to just give up!!! Your daughter and your little grandbaby-to-be are going to benefit so much from a Mom and Grama who has figured out that we need to put the oxygen mask on first before we can help anyone else! And I am right here beside you, punkin. Having a newborn in about 2 and a half weeks is going to be a serious challenge and I will have to be determined not to slip back into comfort and convenience eating, but we can do this together! PROUD OF YOU!!
    3100 days ago
    This just seem to be the "real world" doesn't it? ......... We have such perfect plans for success ........ and what happens? ....... (Oh--those kids!) ........ I guess we have all had to 'pull ourselves up' by the bootstraps and dust ourselves off .......... You can do it ......... we all can ....... Thanks for sharing so honestly ......... Best, 2B/ jan
    3140 days ago
  • BLH507
    Congratulations on the new baby! Whatever circumstances are (believe me, I have been there) that baby will be worth it. Being a Grandma is the most special thing there is. Your daughter is lucky to have your support. I help raise my grandson and wouldn't change a thing.
    3141 days ago
    You really do have a lot of stress going on! Sometimes when you are really stressed, you need to just focus on not gaining any weight and being healthy as you can. Losing weight while under a ton of stress can be too much for some people. Be sure to pat your self on the back for surviving and focusing on this, but also give yourself a break and just try not to gain any weight. Be really good to yourself in as many ways as you can!!!!
    3141 days ago
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