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Loss of a loved one

Thursday, June 21, 2012

The past week and a half have been hard on me. My grandma informed me on Wednesday evening, June 13th, that my grandpa was in the hospital and didn't have long to live. So, the next morning my husband and I got in the car and started the 11 ½ hour drive back to our hometown. Unfortunately, my grandpa passed away before we could get there. But I am glad I was able to be there for my grandma and my uncles. The viewing of the body was on Friday, June 15th, and the funeral was June 16th. Then Sunday we drove home, spending over 14 hours in the car because of traffic.

It was a really long weekend, and it drained me emotionally and physically. I really love my grandpa, and I am going to miss him terribly. It wasn't easy trying to be make sure I was eating at regular intervals, and eating healthy too. And even when I got home, it was a struggle. Up until right now, I am still so sad and depressed. I've done almost nothing for days. And I keep fluctuating between no appetite and craving everything I can't have. It's frustrating. The only tiny solution I've found is in response to sugar cravings - every time those cravings get unbearable, I put a drop or two of pure Stevia liquid extract on my tongue. It seems to do the trick.

I'm not really sure what my weigh-in will be tomorrow, but I hope it shows a loss. I go back to my endocrinologist tomorrow, and I'd really love to be able to show him that I lost at least 10 lbs since he diagnosed me with Type 2 Diabetes five weeks ago.
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    Loss is hard. I lost my sister in Nov. 2012, a dear elderly friend in Nov. 2013, my father-in-law and grandma in 2014, my mother in December 2016, and just 6 months later, my DAD. OY!!!!!
    873 days ago
    I'm so very sorry blessings to you as you grieve. Give it time too.
    3288 days ago
    I'm so sorry you lost your Grandfather. It is so difficult to get through such a time.


    Your Grandmother is so lucky to have a supportive Granddaughter like you, I'm sure she'll need to lean on you and the rest of your family for quite some time to come.

    Good for you for finding something to stop those cravings that isn't restricted to you.
    As hard as it is, the world still turns, and life continues for the living. I'm sure your Grandfather would want you to do everything you need to, for your own good health. And your Grandmother is going to need you to be healthy and stable, so you can be there for her when she needs a shoulder. So in a few days you'll need to pull yourself together, and get back on your journey, so you can kick your diabetes to the curb.
    My SIncerest Condolences.

    3288 days ago
  • LARISSA238
    *hugs* I just lost my Nana last month. She was 3 days away from being 92. I know how hard it can be to try and eat well when you are away from home and grieving. I gained some weight when I went back home to be with my family, but I lost it really quickly once I got back. So even if there is a gain, just know that it will go away. Just remember to celebrate your grandfather's life, and think of all the good times you had with him. emoticon
    3288 days ago
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