Loss of a loved one
Thursday, June 21, 2012
The past week and a half have been hard on me. My grandma informed me on Wednesday evening, June 13th, that my grandpa was in the hospital and didn't have long to live. So, the next morning my husband and I got in the car and started the 11 ½ hour drive back to our hometown. Unfortunately, my grandpa passed away before we could get there. But I am glad I was able to be there for my grandma and my uncles. The viewing of the body was on Friday, June 15th, and the funeral was June 16th. Then Sunday we drove home, spending over 14 hours in the car because of traffic.
It was a really long weekend, and it drained me emotionally and physically. I really love my grandpa, and I am going to miss him terribly. It wasn't easy trying to be make sure I was eating at regular intervals, and eating healthy too. And even when I got home, it was a struggle. Up until right now, I am still so sad and depressed. I've done almost nothing for days. And I keep fluctuating between no appetite and craving everything I can't have. It's frustrating. The only tiny solution I've found is in response to sugar cravings - every time those cravings get unbearable, I put a drop or two of pure Stevia liquid extract on my tongue. It seems to do the trick.
I'm not really sure what my weigh-in will be tomorrow, but I hope it shows a loss. I go back to my endocrinologist tomorrow, and I'd really love to be able to show him that I lost at least 10 lbs since he diagnosed me with Type 2 Diabetes five weeks ago.