Crashing...

So the brother came by yesterday - he was out with the girlfriends motorbike and thought it suitable to stop by... he is going to retire this autmn but spent the time complaining about a colleague at work that lies a lot and how my borther can´t stand this. I should know better than to argue, but said that I do understand what makes people lie a lot, not that it is excusable, but I can understand... but the thing with my borther is that this has been the story always. Every employment he had has gone well for a while and then there is always really stupid persons around that does not behave. And when we meet the main issue is to tell the long boring stories about the conduct of these morons... and I don´t know what to say, I start with discussing until I understand that he does not want my opinions then I fall back and become quet and ...bored.

But then the borther started to ask about my daughter and ended up telling me that we - her father and I - should not burden the poor kid with not being able to communicate, and then he left.

And I cried all evening. I am accusingmyself enough, nobody else has to do it. Further more the daughter texted and asked me to call and this I did. And realised that she is not going to come to me in yet another year, maybe never. This is hard to endure.

So I am off to fix my car, I have a press coiference before lunch and then I will clean my house for a while - did not realise that it is midsummer eve this weekend already - big celebration in Sweden, that is.... and I have no plans and just want to crawl in a hole...