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I don't want to jump the gun but...

Saturday, June 16, 2012

I really think I've seen the light. The only problem is I am pretty sure I've said this before. I want to say that this time feels different, but I'm pretty sure I've said it before. So I guess in a way it's hard to tell. But I do know time will tell, and for the first time I feel like I have this under control.

Here's just some of the reasons I am feeling like this time is different:

*Tons of awesome Spark Friends, when I was on the site years ago I wasn't really super active in talking with people, and this time I feel like I have so much support from everyone, it's just amazing! Not to mention I love supporting others. You guys seriously rock!

*I actually WANT to exercise. Who? Me? The Queen of lazy, how is this possible? But I'm really digging the walking especially

*I don't feel like I'm "on a diet". We all know this is necessary in being successful not only losing, but keeping it off. We all know this has to be a life style change and something we have to do forever. That idea was so overwhelming to me before, but now it's kind of like, what's the big deal? Track my food, do some exercise, why is that so hard? Okay, I know this whole journey is not easy and I struggle with it just as any one does, BUT the basic necessities of tracking and exercise aren't hard concepts and I need to remember that.

*This is the first time I don't feel like giving up. No matter how gung-ho I get about it, I always say to myself "it's just a matter of time before you quit"... "who are you fooling, you'll never do this"... it wasn't until the other day when I was talking to my brother I realized I've been doing this since the beginning of May, and I normally give up after a month. I have no feelings of giving up, I don't let slip ups define me anymore... I used to have 1 bad day and throw in the towel, not anymore.

I really hope I can look back at this at a year and say "You know what, you were right. This time was different and you are really doing this!" as opposed to looking back even heavier going "nope, you were wrong." So let's prove me (and everyone else around me that "knows" I can't do this) wrong for once. ;)
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    Good for you! If it feels different this time -. then it is different this time. We learn from every time we make the effort. I'm so happy for you - I'm in the same groove right now. I'm enjoying the exercising and I"m getting the hang of how much food is reasonable to eat daily. The more we do things right and get the results we want - the more we'll want to do it right.
    Enjoy each small success - enjoy the feeling of being in control. Remember it - savour it! You ROCK!!!!!!!!!!
    2199 days ago
    Awesome! This time IS different! Alot of ppl are making the change for good this time! We are gonna mess up, we are gonna have bad days, were gonna lose weight, gain weight, stay the same weight for what we think is too long....but thats all ok because we aren't gonna stop!
    2199 days ago
    This is probably the last time you will ever "diet" in your life. Your blog reads almost the same as one of mine.....100 or so pounds ago when I'd lost about 20 pounds. I don't know why sometimes something clicks and makes this time different to previous attempts and I hope this is your time too emoticon emoticon
    2199 days ago
    Wow awesome blog. You put in writing what I was thinking. Sparkpeople are awesome. I could not do any of this with out all of your encouragement.

    We will all look back at this year and see just how awesome we have been.

    Great job and keep up the good work and thanks for this blog!
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    2200 days ago
    It's like your reading my mind! LOL Ive had a conversation with myself (swear i'm not crazy) about what makes this time different from all the other times I said I was DONE and it was different. But I agree with all your reasons and I especially think the first one is important! The first time I was on spark I didn't really interact with anyone so there was nothing to tether me to Spark but now that Ive made some awesome friend, you included, I feel more connected. Also diet is such a four letter word lol I'm removing it from my vocabulary! Keep up the awesome work.
    2200 days ago
    I'm not on a diet either ;) People don't seem to get that. LIFESTYLE CHANGE. That's the only thing that makes it happen. I actually threw my scale out. I'll weigh at the health clinic at work once a month or so and leave it at that.
    2200 days ago
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    YOU SO OWN THIS!!! emoticon

    I totally know what you mean about it feeling different this time around - I feel the same way! We can do this! We ARE doing it!!!

    2200 days ago
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