I don't want to jump the gun but...
Saturday, June 16, 2012
I really think I've seen the light. The only problem is I am pretty sure I've said this before. I want to say that this time feels different, but I'm pretty sure I've said it before. So I guess in a way it's hard to tell. But I do know time will tell, and for the first time I feel like I have this under control.
Here's just some of the reasons I am feeling like this time is different:
*Tons of awesome Spark Friends, when I was on the site years ago I wasn't really super active in talking with people, and this time I feel like I have so much support from everyone, it's just amazing! Not to mention I love supporting others. You guys seriously rock!
*I actually WANT to exercise. Who? Me? The Queen of lazy, how is this possible? But I'm really digging the walking especially
*I don't feel like I'm "on a diet". We all know this is necessary in being successful not only losing, but keeping it off. We all know this has to be a life style change and something we have to do forever. That idea was so overwhelming to me before, but now it's kind of like, what's the big deal? Track my food, do some exercise, why is that so hard? Okay, I know this whole journey is not easy and I struggle with it just as any one does, BUT the basic necessities of tracking and exercise aren't hard concepts and I need to remember that.
*This is the first time I don't feel like giving up. No matter how gung-ho I get about it, I always say to myself "it's just a matter of time before you quit"... "who are you fooling, you'll never do this"... it wasn't until the other day when I was talking to my brother I realized I've been doing this since the beginning of May, and I normally give up after a month. I have no feelings of giving up, I don't let slip ups define me anymore... I used to have 1 bad day and throw in the towel, not anymore.
I really hope I can look back at this at a year and say "You know what, you were right. This time was different and you are really doing this!" as opposed to looking back even heavier going "nope, you were wrong." So let's prove me (and everyone else around me that "knows" I can't do this) wrong for once. ;)