Sunday, June 10, 2012

To whom it may concern,

I am officially uncomfortable in my own body!!!! I am dissapointed in myself and the choices that I have made. I realize that my weight and the emotional problems that result from it are my own fault however I have not found the motivation to change things.

Me and my boyfriend now have gym memberships and while he has attended almost everyday I have been like 4 times total.

Where is my motivation??? Am I not goal orientated, am I not driven by results? What is my problem. We have change our eating habits around but now I find myself sneaking junk food at work!!!!

I am sabotaging my self, what is wrong with me. When I look in the mirror I do not see the same girl that in my head, its like my inside and my outside don't match.

I am always soo tired and sluggish but I can get my behind up and go smoke (another habit I need to break).

I get at the most 5 hrs sleep a night and by the time I am off at 4, going to the gym is not appealing!!!

I want to change my view on myself but can't find the determination to do it. Am I a lost cause? Am I destined to be in this body that I am uncomfortable in? What will happen to my self esteem that is already quite lacking?

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    Getting healthy is all about a lifestyle change. If you can't find the motivation, just make a small goal each week to accomplish. For example, make a goal to drink 8 glasses of water. Exercise at least 10 minuts. Etc. Making dramatic changes doesn't work for everyone.

    Maybe the gym isn't for you. I used to go for the classes only. I did not enjoy the treadmill and other machines. Once the gym closed I bought DVDs and that works best. I'm no expert of course. I let the weight creep up on me the past 3 years after losing 20 pounds. Then I gained it all back + 10 pounds. What I saw in the mirror was different than what the camera showed and I was shocked and sickened. Like you I felt like 2 people. At Easter and seeing my pictures put my butt in gear to workout and slim down before the next family party.

    Anyway, I am also tired all of the time (have you gone to the dr?), but I bought Insanity (not for everybody, but any DVD works) and as soon as I get home from work I drop my laptop bag on the floor, change into workout clothes, and play the DVD. So many times I don't feel like doing it, but now it is habit. At times I'll say, "Well, even if I only do 1/2 the DVD, that is more calories than I would've burned otherwise." But once I get going I end up finishing the DVD and happier for it.

    No one is destined to be overweight or uncomfortable about themselves. Just make small goals that you can accomplish, figure out the best exercise regime for you, and get healthy.

    Good luck!
    2175 days ago
    Make small changes that you CAN keep up! That's the secret to most Spark success stories. Drink water regularly; eat more fruits and vegetables. Instead lengthy gym sessions, try for at least 10 minutes of walking or other exercise daily. You might sleep better if you can quit the smoking; it's a stimulant. emoticon
    2175 days ago
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