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Talk about high anxiety!

Saturday, June 09, 2012

We are lucky enough to live in a town that has an amusement/water park that's about 10 minutes from us. The school always sells the tickets at a huge discount, but there's a catch. You can only use them in June, or the last weekend the park is open, usually Labor Day weekend. Well, we are already busy every weekend in June and 2 years ago when we waited until September, it was chilly and rainy. That did not make for a pleasant trip to the water park.

Sooo, we decided that because tomorrow is supposed to be 82 degrees and sunny, better go now! I'm not one for last minute plans, and last minute plans to go to a WATER park is definitely NOT my cup of tea. It really is the best decision because we really don't have any other time to go, but I like to dwell on things... like being in a swim suit in front of God knows how many people...

The kids are older and they want to go on the bigger water slides. I love the water, but the combination of water and children just causes me to have a panic attack. Not just my kids, any kid. Water is not an easy medium to run through when you're trying to reach a child in distress. It scares the hell out of me. I've already told them they can't go on any slides alone, which means I have to ride with one of them while hubby rides with the other. I'm already having a stroke!

I know we're going to have a blast, but I'm not going to sleep tonight stressing about the swim suit and the kids safety. I've been seeing a lot of people posting pics in their swim suits, and I always thought, I could never do that. Well what better way to get over some of the anxiety, then to put it online for anyone to see, right?!?

There you go, that wasn't so bad. Now on to real life tomorrow!

We had SOOO much fun! I was super nervous about the swim suit, but after I got there, I realized I was not the worst looking thing there. Even some of the tiny people made some very poor choices in suits. Come on people, it's a family park, YIKES! But I quickly got over those fears and moved onto the water phobia. We went on the lazy river with no issues, and then the kids wanted to go on the bigger slides. This is where my fear takes over. Of course there were TONS of steps to get to the top, but that wasn't a problem this year! I've been a swimmer my whole life, and I have no fear of heights, but as silly as it seems, I'm afraid I'm going to fly over the edge of the slide. I know, ridiculous!

You have to go alone, and I thought I could go with Jake, so now I'm really sick to my stomach. He went on one side and I went on the other. It wasn't nearly as bad as I imagined, but I still felt as if I could fly over the edge. When I got to the bottom, I stayed in the water to wait for Jake. He came flying down that slide, flew into the pool, jumped up and asked if he could go again. Ugh, all my fears, were instantly gone! My dad went with us, and we rode a few of the bigger slides while hubby stayed with the kids on the smaller slides, and we all had a great time.

We had a picnic lunch and then went to the amusement park, where all of the anxiety came back from 2 years ago. I couldn't hardly get into the rides, the safety harnesses didn't seem tight enough because they barely came down. I was worried my kids would fly out of the ride when they were with me because the harness didn't seem to fit right. I was sweating like a pig, and was totally embarrassed by it. This time, NONE of that happened. I had plenty of room in all the rides, all the harnesses fit properly, and even though it was 82 degrees, I hardly sweat at all. I'm finally feeling like a normal sized person.
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    You look fabulous! Such an inspiration!!
    2186 days ago
    Wow, you go girl, I'm sure you made lifetime memories for your kids.-Priceless!
    2187 days ago
    Muwah! Wonderful!
    2188 days ago
    You did it! emoticon I'm glad you had fun.

    And you looked great, too. emoticon
    2188 days ago
    You joined SP the day after I did (two years ago) and you've accomplished so much more than I have ... that makes me realize I've been a slacker! I have been successful in getting pounds off and incorporating healthier choices into my life, but I need to renew my zest for living. Thanks for your inspiring posts.
    2189 days ago
    You look great in your swimsuit. I related to every one of your fears. But you overcame them. Go you! Your amusement park sounds like ours. You don't live in Pennsylvania do you? Ours is both an amusement and water park too and we used to have the same problem with school picnic tickets. Anyway, be proud of who you've become. You truly look amazing!!!
    2192 days ago
    You look great in that swimsuit Holly! Glad to hear you had such a great time.

    Hey, I'm afraid of flying off the edge of water slides too -- you're not alone.

    2194 days ago
    That is so awesome!!! I am so happy for you Holly!!!! Sounds like a great time!!!1 Also you look AMAZING in your swim suit. You have done a spectacular job!!!!!
    2194 days ago
    Dang it, how did I miss this!??!?!

    emoticon on all of the victories! That had to feel amazing and a BIG TIME NSV baby!! You're "normal" by the strictest of standards...amusement park rides. What a relief that had to be for you! YAY!
    2195 days ago
    Yay! I am so happy for you that you had a nice time! I remember having a lot of the same fears as you, but now it's gone. I enjoy getting to do these things now with the kids. You look awesome in your suit by the way. I got a new suit that I like, and it actually doesn't have a skirt which I said I'd never do, but I liked how it fit. I thought about taking a picture in it, but I haven't. I have only gone swimming once so far this season.
    2195 days ago
    Glad you had fun! Love your suit and you look super cute in it!
    2195 days ago
    You look great. Try not to worry about it. I have a friend who is a "woman of heroic proportions," and just owns it. She is tall and big-boned, and will never be anything else. She runs, swims, hikes, works out. She has no body image issues whatsoever. I try to take a page from her book. She is so beautiful inside that it translated outside. I think that we tend to forget that we are beautiful inside, even if we have issues about our outsides.

    Have fun!
    2195 days ago
    I am so happy you had a good time. Water parks terrify me too. You look fantastic!
    2195 days ago
  • NEWMOM20121
    LOVE your blog. Thank you so much for sharing. You look very nice in your swim suit, BTW. It is amazing what we will do for our children, and is even better when we have a great time with them. Way to go.
    2195 days ago
  • JBRIDGES1031
    You look amazing! And yes there are even the skinny that makes horrible decisions! Cannot wait to get where you are. Great job and thanks for the motivation!
    2195 days ago
    You look amazing girl! Miss you! xoxoxo
    2195 days ago
  • ROSET491
    Loved your Blog! I know just the park!! So glad you had a good time! Love the suit , someday I hope to get over my anxiety of wearing a suit in public~haven't worn one in years!!!
    2196 days ago
  • PATIB13
    That is awesome Holly!!! You suit was super cute. Good for you for stepping out of your comfort zone. Way to go. emoticon emoticon
    2197 days ago
    You look great and even more than that you were able to create precious memories with your family. Go you!!!
    2198 days ago
    Good for you, and you look fantastic!!! How awesome is it that your kids get to remember this fun-loving mom who isn't anxious about fitting into the seat or bathing suit season or anything like that! emoticon
    2198 days ago
    I love the swim suit also. Funny I was just talking last week about being brave enough to post my pic in my new suit this year when I can remember to get daughter to take a picture. I am glad that you had a great time and overcame tons of things that were in your mind. We just booked our trip to NH this year and I am starting to feel the anxiety over the Monkey Trunks place, which is a three tier ropes course, which I vowed I would do with my kids this year rather than watch them. I am starting to feel those feelings though, but I voiced them to my family already and said DO NOT let me back out.
    2198 days ago
    Glad you had a great time! :)
    2198 days ago
    YES! Best part of your update: "I'm finally feeling like a normal sized person." :D Smiling all over for you right now!
    2198 days ago
  • MANDYJ73
    I'm so glad to hear you had such a good time... what a moment, when you try something that was so uncomfortable a year or so ago and you realize it's no longer an issue! It's a great remnder for all of us to try things we have not done for a very long time!
    2198 days ago
    Holly You look super. I look at you and find it hard to believe you ever had a weight problem. I know you have worked llon and hard to get where you are and I can't tell you howw proud we are of you. The main reason dad went with you toda wqs to support you on the rides and water park. We could not be prouder of you. Anyone would be proud to look as good as you do in that suit. LOVE YA MOM emoticon emoticon
    2198 days ago
    I just love that swim suit! Can I ask where you bought it? Fabulous and covers all the right things emoticon
    2198 days ago
    If I saw you at a water park, I wouldn't look twice at you. Let me explain my compliment. You would just blend in with all the other normal size people! You look great, love the suit! You have worked hard and you look Fab....have a great time!!!!
    2198 days ago
    Love the suit, you look great! Relax and enjoy the day, I bet you will be surprised you have more energy than last year.

    Have fun!
    2199 days ago
    I'll echo what others have said - you look amazing - happy and proud and beautiful - and I think you're incredibly brave, too! Have a GREAT time at the water park!
    2199 days ago
    You look gorgeous and I love that top!!!
    2199 days ago
    I think you look great!! Don't stress and just have an awesome time!!
    2199 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/10/2012 7:52:21 AM
    Holly, you look great! And you're right, you will have a blast. Try to enjoy it!
    2199 days ago
  • -POOKIE-
    Have fun, you look wonderful!
    2199 days ago
    You look great! Have a great time! You deserve it!
    2199 days ago
    I know it really about how we feel about ourselves, but I think you look fantastic!! The swimsuit is very cute& great colors on you!
    2199 days ago
    OK, here's my completely honest assessment -- I won't sugar coat it or beat around the bush because, after all, if we can't speak candidly about these things then why are we here?

    I wouldn't necessarily offer a comment on someone's appearance, but since you asked, here goes........

    u look beautiful. Simple as that. I love the color....the cut....the way it fits you. It's modest, flattering, and you will be able to move around without fear of a wardrobe malfunction. In other words, it's perfect for the waterpark!

    I know it's difficult, but try not to let your fears about other people looking/judging interfere with the fun day you have planned. I am CERTAIN you will not be the biggest person there! And as for the kids safety -- totally normal to have concerns (you are a good parent, obviously!), but remember that most waterparks have MANY lifeguards or other staff there to keep an eye on everyone.

    So, ENJOY -- take some photos and post here after!!!
    2199 days ago
  • MANDYJ73
    Holly, you look fantastic! I hope you enjoy your day... it sounds like fun!
    2199 days ago
    I'm still too self-conscious to put up swimsuit pics!! I think you look great, though. I hope the time at the park ended up being good. :)
    2199 days ago
  • TEMPEST272002
    I totally love your bathing suit! You look great in it. I'm a bit of a fish, so I love the water. Remember that there are life guards on duty to watch all those other children. Keep yours in sight and focus on having fun!
    2199 days ago
    Awww! I like it! You look great! :) Don't worry woman! Have fun!
    2199 days ago
  • JAIRIE813
    You look great!

    I know what you mean about the anxiety over the kids. We took the kids to a local lake a couple of weeks ago. While I watch my kids like a hawk, many parents do not. I was so stressed out the entire time we were there that I could not even enjoy myself.

    Hope you have a great time!
    2199 days ago
  • ACCT1908
    You look fantastic!

    2199 days ago
  • MS0669
    You look great ! Have a wonderful time, relax and enjoy being with your family. The only thing you should be worried about is forgetting the sunscreen !
    2199 days ago
    you look awesome!! nothing to be self-conscious about at all!! And... just think of how much fun you CAN have with the kids now that you've been living a healthy lifestyle & are so much fitter! YOU ARE THE COOL MOM!!!!
    2199 days ago
    You look great! And you look like you are a Mom who knows how to have fun!! Enjoy your day and don't forget the sunscreen!! emoticon
    2199 days ago
    Hurrayyyyyyy!!!! you did it and whatsmore you look great! What gorgoeous colours. I hope you relax and have a fabulous time with your kids.We have a water park 10 mins from my house too and whatsmore I buy a season ticket for 3 months and we go nearly everyday. I've always felt too fat to go on any of the slides with Aimee so this year is going to be a first...she'll have to race me to the top!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2199 days ago
    You look very nice! I hope you have a great time.
    2199 days ago
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