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Revelations From a Closet

Friday, June 08, 2012

Some of my Spark friends know that we've been on a journey at our house to clear out the clutter for several weeks. The final room was the bedroom. Mainly the closet. Yesterday was the day and here's what happened.

The hubby went through his things (actually he did his Wednesday night) and laughingly said, "This is easy! If there's dust on it, I don't wear it." And off to either the donate or throw away piles it would go. When I started through my things Thursday morning I was doing pretty good making those choices myself as these were the size or next one down that I knew what I would wear or not, but it was not as easy as the hubby made it to be because I had several sizes to weed through. I found it was getting harder as the sizes got smaller. My first pass was "this looks too young for me now" and into the bag it would go. The second pass was an effort to only keep 2-3 items in those sizes for future and then fill in as needed. (Other than the smaller sizes as I plan to need more of those.) I had to leave the project for a few hours as it was our playdate/lunch with friends but I had already filled 4 kitchen size trash bags so dropped those off on the way home. It got even harder in the afternoon as I was tackling a tub of clothes (all the others had actually been in the closet) that were my favorites in the smaller sizes. I couldn't keep them all. Again, some were just too young looking, some were housing crackly elastic and others I just needed to decide whether I wanted to wear it again or not one day. I found myself in tears. I don't know if it was just the memories associated with the clothing that was going away or if it was sadness over who I had been years ago (thinner). I'm leaning towards the second thought because as I type it a day later those are the words that bring tears to my eyes. Maybe I should have done this long ago...sort of like crossing another emotional stronghold in the journey.

There was a fun part to going through the clothes. Seeing how cute the smaller sizes were and remembering how much I enjoyed wearing those clothes brought smiles. Maybe there will be extra incentive to make the right choices so I can get to those clothes again.

And a confession...I did give in to some emotional eating last night. Ice cream! At least today I'm wrapping the logic around myself instead of total emotions so we're back on track. The gym was a must today!
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    I can so relate - Just cleaned out my closet too - I had to immediatley take the bags to the thrift store. I knew if they were here I would start taking things back - I know how hard it can be - This is such an emotional journey. Congrats on taking that big step!
    2164 days ago
    Oh, isn't this journey so hard? I was really lucky (I guess) that I decided I was going to be fat forever and got rid of ALL my "skinny" clothes before I ever started on this journey. I'd essentially given up...then I started thinking that I really could lose some weight, and maybe even get smaller...but by then my small talls were being sold at the closest youth ranch and donation station. I still mourn some of those clothes - let's face it, some of them were really cute! But now, I go and buy one thing here and one thing there - not lots of cloths at once...first because I find that I'm smaller at work than I am in the dressing room (I'm not sure what that phenom is but it's true, clothes fall off my shoulders at work when they fit 'perfectly' while standing still in the dressing room) I don't buy a ton. It's a strange place to be. Also, I haven't lost any weight to speak of in months and months, but I've lost a shirt size. Who knows. I understand, this journey is not just physical, it's emotional and spiritual and 'sizical'...I'm proud of you and the progress that you are making! Going through your closet is a weight loss journey in itself!!!! Kudos Janet!!! And hugs! emoticon
    2164 days ago
    This journey really makes us discover so much about ourselves and that's a good thing. I know you r mind feels a bit clearer now and you can now use this newly found space!!

    You are indeed awesome!!

    2169 days ago
    Take pictures of the favorites! I found that tip on the Discardia blog. It helped! Often it really is the memory that we are afraid of losing. "Gee, I wore that dress to ....." or "that's the t-shirt from ......". I was able to purge a lot of scentimental stuff that way.

    Now if I can just find an answer for the favorite pants I'm just sure I'll get back into!
    2172 days ago
    I know what you mean! it is hard to look at where we were and where we are now. I still have a long way to go, and I need to put one of my old outfits out to remind me of where I need to go!
    2174 days ago
    its always hard letting go of things - I know i need to do it too! Thansk for being so inspiring!
    2174 days ago
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    Oh girl that is so hard!! I keep clothes thinking I will be able to wear this when I lose weight ..... the sad part is i bought it too small thinking I would lose the weight and never did, but because I never wore it, it feels very wasteful to get rid of it, so I keep it. I'm very slowly learning to not do that. I have a dress that I bought 2 years ago, still with the tag on it, thinking that when my belly shrinks It will look good on me. well 20 pounds lighter - belly still stick out to far for it but the top of it is so big it falls off me or I fall out of it.
    Be proud for what you did!! And Ice Cream???? Well it is made from milk and us girls need all the calcium we can get. emoticon
    2174 days ago
    Yes, it can be difficult to let go of things that bring back memories, and also remind us of what we were.
    2174 days ago
    My closet is calling my name.. I just cant face it. I am extremely sentimental so it is so hard for me to throw away anything that had a specific memory attached to it. "I wore this when I was...." I even have a dress from when I was 2 that I remember loving. What on earth am I going to do with it???

    Great job on getting to a really difficult task.

    2174 days ago
    Janet - I'm sure that you feel lighter having that job done. I can understand the emotions that came to the surface. As for the ice cream - you worked it off today! Have a great weekend!
    2174 days ago
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