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Digging Deeper

Friday, June 08, 2012

Thank you to all of you who gave me support on my last blog. It really does help to know that I have people rooting for me. I was having such a rough day - triggered by that dratted scale. But I woke up the next day feeling a new resolve. Today will be 4 days of tracking & staying within ranges and 3 days of moderate to intense exercising. I'm feeling better and more focused.

I certainly think that the stress of the new job has played a large factor in the weight gain. But that stress is starting to decrease now. As I spend more time in the job, I become more comfortable. My office bully is behaving professionally towards me now and my boss is taking steps to improve the atmosphere of the office in general - like brining in an expert to give us a workshop on "critical conversations".

But seeing those numbers on the scale made me feel - quite literally - ill. It also gave me an extra dose of motivation to stop making excuses to myself. So once again, I'm taking a deep breathe and digging deeper and just doing it, dammit.

I'm heading out of town for work for the next two weeks. I'm a little concerned about how I'm going to manage with the food and exercise, so I'm starting to think of it now.

We're staying at a university campus, so I'm sure they have a gym with drop in hours nearby. If not, I can still do body weight exercises in my room and go for jogs around the campus. I have the mobile app on my phone for food and exercise tracking. I'll pack my exercise clothes and swim suit.

The company is providing lunches & snacks and reimbusing for breakfasts and dinners. I'm going to email the training coordinator tomorrow to let her know that I'm diabetic and need healthy food options. I'm going to pass on the breakfasts out and take my own pre-measured oatmeal blend instead. I'll stock the fridge in my unit with fresh fruit, veggies and lean protiens to snack on at night. I will choose the healthiest option on the menu at dinner.

I do have options. I can make the scale move in the other direction. I just have to remember that the power to decide really is mine. One of the things discussed in the communication workshop was that we tell ourselves stories. Sometimes the stories are about other people. Sometimes the stories are about ourselves. Often the stories aren't actually true. I'm telling myself untrue stories when I say I can't control my eating. I am the only one who decides what to put in my mouth.

Four days of deciding to stick to the plan. I tell myself that doing otherwise just isn't an option. End of. And that helps.
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    How to deal with life and the changes we enforce into it is part of our lessons. You are reflecting and learning and I believe you will get to a better place. Hoping your trip renews you!
    2166 days ago
  • PCOH051610
    Great blog full of the insight you are known for. I really liked what you said about telling ourselves stories because in the end it really does come down to that, doesn't it? I mean we are in full control of what goes in our mouths and how and when we move our bodies but sometimes we try to tell ourselves differently.
    2175 days ago
    Sounds like a good plan! When you go away you have to make a plan and you did!

    I also think that it was great that your boss brought in that trainer for a class. It sounds like she really took the issues you had with the bully to heart and is trying to improve things.
    2178 days ago
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    Awesome plan!

    Some great thinking!

    Woo hoo to you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2178 days ago
    I love how you said that it's been "4 days of DECIDING to stick to plan." That is so true. It's all about our choices. And we are blessed and powerful in that we have them to make. No one is forcing us to do anything...good or bad. So MORE POWER TO YOU for CHOOSING well!!! Continue on, soldier!
    2179 days ago
    Seems like you have an awesome plan in place! I know you can do it!
    2179 days ago
  • FRECKS96
    ooh! I love the idea that we tell ourselves stories. Definitely something I need to work on remembering! Good luck on your trip!
    2179 days ago
    You have a fabulous plan! "You will succeed. You will indeed. 99.9% guaranteed!" - Dr. Suess
    2179 days ago
    Great, Deanna! And don't forget that while you're there, you can Spark wherever you are... I'm sure the university will have wi fi, too, and computers, too, if you need one! Keep Sparking and keeping your head up! You know you can do it! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2179 days ago
    Being consistent is the best way to concur the beast, and you're well on your way. I think you have an AMAZING plan for your work trip and I know good things will come of it.
    2179 days ago
    Now that sounds like you !! A great plan under your belt!!!
    I too have to make a plan on how to not injure my back more. I want to do that walk on Sunday so bad, so will see how I do today and sat.
    Glad you are getting away, that the bully hasn't relatliated and you are settling in.

    2179 days ago
    It sounds like you have an awesome plan!!!! You might find it even easier to stay on track than at home, at least I think it might be easier for me, less things to "distract" you away from home!!!! Good luck!!!!!!
    2179 days ago
  • BD3269PM
    You sound like you have a great plan for going away. You can do this. Just remember that you are worth it and you have people pulling for you emoticon
    2179 days ago
  • JLITT62
    Sounds like you have a great plan - traveling is always a challenge! Taking your own breakfast is very smart - i always do that - it's so easy to get derailed at breakfast & then just keep going. Now, do you have a plan b? For when things don't go as planned?

    Glad you enjoyed the pancakes! I have a couple of overripe bananas that need using up!
    2179 days ago
    I'm happy for you : )
    emoticon to meeting your goals in the past 4 days!

    It is great you are planning how to continue living a healthy lifestyle while you are away from your home for two weeks. You have very good ideas, and looked at the trip as an opportunity to exercise and eat well.
    I have 2-3 day business trips often, and those days are almost always perfect-food-and-exercise days for me. And I'm looking forward to run or walk on different paths, to swim in unknown swimming pools... well I hardly ever swim when I'm at home.

    Last but not least:
    emoticon to contributing to making your working place a more professional and enjoyable one! I'm sure your open feedback helped your boss a lot.
    2179 days ago
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