The bag of Twizzlers
Tuesday, June 05, 2012
*warning* not a postive blog*warning*
So yesterday I went to the second cookout of the week. I had a little bit of everything one because I was hungry and two because it was good. I didn't eat the bread on the hamburger and I ate very little potatoe salad. For desert I was going to have a little piece of cake but I didn't like it so I had a cookie. Then I came home two or three hours later and was hungry. I wanted a milk shake. Instead I got the bag of twizzlers and finished it off.
No it was not a good feeling but I'm tired of being hungry all the time. Atleast twice a day I'm hungry. I make good choice and are full when I eat but it only last three hours and I need to eat again. I can't eat at work all the time. It seems like my life has to revolver around this diet... yes I said diet,,, for it to work. I have to buy the more expensive groceries, which have taken a toll on our overall finances. I also have to be careful when I go out which I have another get together tonight. I've been to the gym atleast three time a week,. I had 1300 fitness minutes last month thats more than most. The bottom line is I'm still not loosing weight.,
SO I know yesterday was postive and the scale just now said I lost weight but I can't do it any more. I can't stress and worry and always be about what I eat and when can I work out. My life has to go on. I'm done for now. I've done good and I've had a good run. I know given a couple months I'll come back but not now.